Can commitment be sexier than an affair? - 07/17/19 04:36 AM
Hi everyone, I've been reading this forum and listening to marriage builders radio for a long time now but haven't posted before.
My husband and I are in a rut in our marriage. In short, we have had a good marriage but lacked spark right from the start. We got married very young and because I was so young and immature when we met I married him because he was the right type of guy, not because I was madly in love with him. I was attracted to him (physically and personality), but there was always something missing which I ignored thinking it's just the way relationships go. The missing part was sexual chemistry so sex and romance in particular has been pretty average. It's not for lack of trying on his part, I just never had intense desires for him and eventually developed a sexual aversion.
We are in our mid 30s now and I think both realizing that life is passing us by while we raise children and live in a fairly mediocre marriage. I found marriage builders a while ago and really thought it was the answer to all our problems. We've talked a lot in the last few months about our likes/dislikes, our turn on's etc and I've been quite hopeful that this program will bring the spark into our relationship.
This week I have finally come to a very scary realization. The type of men I find insanely attractive are cheating types. When I look back to the men I was severely attracted to before my husband, they were all the "bad-boy" cheating types. A lot flirted with me while I was dating other guys and I even cheated a few times. It makes sense to me now why I married my husband and didn't marry a man I was intensely attracted to because I guess some part of me knew they would likely mess me around. It sounds awful and I hate even admitting it, but I think the only way to fix things is to be honest and blunt.
This has made me question whether marriage builders can solve my problem. Maybe my husband just doesn't possess the qualities that turn me on ie. the cheating bad-boy thing. I understand the concept about extra ordinary precautions and boundaries around other men etc and have not had an affair since being married, however this is make or break time for our relationship. For us to stay together, I need to be able to be more attracted to my husband than I was to those other men in my early 20s. The thrill of the bad-boy, the thrill of flirting behind my partner's back, the excitement of doing something "wrong". He also, understandably, does not want to be with me if my most intense attractions were to other people. If he and I are in love, it needs to at least match those attractions and desires or else he always comes off second. In that case it's better for him to find someone else and have it be magical right from the start.
How can I get that same thrill and excitement from a committed relationship? Is it possible to change my tastes so that I find something else sexier than what I did in the past?
I'm really hoping so!
I remember hearing one of Dr Harley's radio shows where he was speaking to a woman who is only really attracted to abusive men and finds other men to be kind of "weak". She split from her abusive husband and Dr Harley told her that she should be single rather than get into another relationship with an abuser if that's the type of man she finds sexy. Is mine a similar case? Does anyone have any experience with this and perhaps a solution for us?
I know the answer will probably be to stop being selfish and I agree, but me not being selfish over the years has never fixed the problem, it's just made it dormant. And kind of makes him feel lame that I have to be "selfless" in order to be with him. Terrible!
I need some practical solutions to find a committed relationship sexier than the casual, naughty, wrong relationship.
I hope that all makes sense and that someone has an answer or some similar experience to share. Thanks!
My husband and I are in a rut in our marriage. In short, we have had a good marriage but lacked spark right from the start. We got married very young and because I was so young and immature when we met I married him because he was the right type of guy, not because I was madly in love with him. I was attracted to him (physically and personality), but there was always something missing which I ignored thinking it's just the way relationships go. The missing part was sexual chemistry so sex and romance in particular has been pretty average. It's not for lack of trying on his part, I just never had intense desires for him and eventually developed a sexual aversion.
We are in our mid 30s now and I think both realizing that life is passing us by while we raise children and live in a fairly mediocre marriage. I found marriage builders a while ago and really thought it was the answer to all our problems. We've talked a lot in the last few months about our likes/dislikes, our turn on's etc and I've been quite hopeful that this program will bring the spark into our relationship.
This week I have finally come to a very scary realization. The type of men I find insanely attractive are cheating types. When I look back to the men I was severely attracted to before my husband, they were all the "bad-boy" cheating types. A lot flirted with me while I was dating other guys and I even cheated a few times. It makes sense to me now why I married my husband and didn't marry a man I was intensely attracted to because I guess some part of me knew they would likely mess me around. It sounds awful and I hate even admitting it, but I think the only way to fix things is to be honest and blunt.
This has made me question whether marriage builders can solve my problem. Maybe my husband just doesn't possess the qualities that turn me on ie. the cheating bad-boy thing. I understand the concept about extra ordinary precautions and boundaries around other men etc and have not had an affair since being married, however this is make or break time for our relationship. For us to stay together, I need to be able to be more attracted to my husband than I was to those other men in my early 20s. The thrill of the bad-boy, the thrill of flirting behind my partner's back, the excitement of doing something "wrong". He also, understandably, does not want to be with me if my most intense attractions were to other people. If he and I are in love, it needs to at least match those attractions and desires or else he always comes off second. In that case it's better for him to find someone else and have it be magical right from the start.
How can I get that same thrill and excitement from a committed relationship? Is it possible to change my tastes so that I find something else sexier than what I did in the past?
I'm really hoping so!
I remember hearing one of Dr Harley's radio shows where he was speaking to a woman who is only really attracted to abusive men and finds other men to be kind of "weak". She split from her abusive husband and Dr Harley told her that she should be single rather than get into another relationship with an abuser if that's the type of man she finds sexy. Is mine a similar case? Does anyone have any experience with this and perhaps a solution for us?
I know the answer will probably be to stop being selfish and I agree, but me not being selfish over the years has never fixed the problem, it's just made it dormant. And kind of makes him feel lame that I have to be "selfless" in order to be with him. Terrible!
I need some practical solutions to find a committed relationship sexier than the casual, naughty, wrong relationship.
I hope that all makes sense and that someone has an answer or some similar experience to share. Thanks!