I have been married to my husband for almost 11 years.
We've had a good marriage with the normal problems once in a while 'not enough sex', 'spending too much money', etc.
Overall it was a loving marriage.....
I've never learned to deal with money (no allowance, lived with parents most my life and then with husband) so I fell into the debt trap.....I was too embarrassed to ask my husband for help and tried to get out of debt on my own....which with my tiny paycheck didn't work out.....
He's a saver and has several savings.....he's been begging me over the last couple of years to please start saving (thinking I was rid of my debt) and to contribute to the bills.....
We fought over this and me working at a daycare where I make little money and have no chance of ever making more.....so I'd be stuck in this rut.....and me not going back to college to get a different degree and then a better job.....
When we fought like this I surely wasn't interested in sex and my husband is (his words) a sex addict.....
So this became a vicious cycle......
I think when he hit midlife crisis (buying new clothes which he's never done in 10 years, getting depressed and unhappy with our life) he's got into online contact sites esp. Facebook
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He went to a family reunion with his brother in July, he called every night all sweet and loving, came back, was his old self for about 2 weeks, got mad about a charge made on the phone bill for movies on demand and the following week he's shut me out of his facebook account and changed all passwords to email accounts, bank accounts etc.
On Labor Day weekend he told me he wants a divorce...:eek:
Claiming he has been unhappy for years.....I'm taking him for granted, don't appreciate him and don't respect him.....
I begged and pleaded, cried and cried, but he said he didn't love me anymore, only as the mother of our children.....
He said he built anger and resentment towards me because all of those years I haven't changed (financially, education wise, sexually, etc) despite his begging.....and he's DONE....
The same night we had sex....he cuddled with me (which he hasn't done in ages) and even cried while holding me all night...
We've had sex on and off since then and he would hold me at night.....
I started working on myself immediately and made great progress.....finances are going slow, but I'm doing it (with his help).....
He's given me hope and so I was devastated when I saw divorce papers on his desk......
He said he's started the process, but it doesn't mean that it will be turned in....giving me hope yet again....
He started suspicious behavior with his phone, carrying it with him at all times, hiding it under his desk when I came in and I was sure he had an affair....he denied it adamantly....I wanted to believe him.....
We got along so great, no fighting, laughing, smiling and having sex.....
Then all of a sudden the last couple of weeks he's been presenting me with papers regarding the divorce and to please sign them.....I stalled....
Last week then, my youngest son, got to play with his computer while he got ready for work.....
Son came to me saying he's messed up daddy's computer so I went to check it out.....I fixed the mess and saw the recycle bin.....I just had to open it....and found.....pictures of a ****** half nude, with her b**bs showing.....cell phone pics......amateur pics.....
I restored them and they went to a file in his pictures, so it wasn't just porn from a temporary file....
I frantically printed those pics, but didn't say a word to husband.
Until that night when I found the divorce paper yet again....."Please sign !!!"......
I texted him (night shift) why the hurry, and he said no hurry but he was advised to turn it in or the case will be dropped.....I said, no biggie since we could make this marriage work.....
It ended up going back and forth and showed me that all the hope he's given me was just tactic to get me to sign the papers....
I told him I know that he doesn't want the divorce just because he was fed up with me not changing my ways, but that I also know about "HER".....
He stopped messaging right then....
I texted that after 10 years he owes me the truth....he will get his divorce, but he owes me the truth about that ******......
Next day he was distant.....I asked him about her again....he just laughed at me.....I said "I have pictures"....and he said cold "Nothing with me in it!".....
That was it....
I wrote him a final letter saying how much I loved him and such and that he will get his divorce, since I can't force him to love me....
I put it in his car when he went to work....
I'm broken....heart broken.....devastated.....
Can midlife crisis cause a faithful, loving and caring husband to go over the edge like this ???
Where he throws everything away just for an affair ????
Never in a billion years did I expect this to happen.....not with him
!!!!!
He's not the man he used to be for 10 years.....he's cold and I don't know......just awful....
How long does a midlife crisis last ????
Is it possible he'll snap out of it then ???
That he realizes what he's done and regret it ???
Any experiences with this ???
Please, I'm desperate for hope !!!!!!!
I know I can't stop the divorce, but I would even give him a chance after because I know he's not himself right now !!!!!!!