Well, I am still hanging in. I had a pretty busy weekend and it helped!!<P>On Saturday, my mom and I went birthday shopping for D (turning 6 on the 17th) and did some Christmas shopping too.<P>I went to see my psychic too. She is so up-beat and fun to talk to. She still says that he is going to come home. He is really thinking about his actions and their consequences. She said, and I quote "He is about ready to pull his head out of his a@@", which makes me feel really good. She also told me "You really need to clean up your house!!" Well, excuse me!!! but, I really have been neglecting it and there was stuff piled everywhere. (So, I cleaned the entire house today.) She said I needed to be creative, so the kids and I decorated the house and tree tonight. Did it entirely different than past years with H home. She said that I need to keep my positive attitude and he will be with me on Christmas. (Maybe not moved back in, but at least spending time here on Christmas Day.) I told her that I had some news that could hurt him in his job but had decided not to use it, she said that was the best choice. She said he would be with me New Year's Eve. So, all in all, things are pretty positive, according to her.<P>D and I wrote him letters a couple of days ago and in D's she told him that she wants "nothing" from him for her birthday. I don't imagine he will be thrilled to hear that. D has refused to talk to him on the phone for the past 5 weeks or so. He called tonight to see if she would talk to him, she said "no", he was pretty sad about that. He asked how we are and what we were doing. I told him the kids were decorating the tree, he sounded depressed about that also...oh, well, I didn't say that although I wanted to. I have been really good about not LBing. He said "When Ty Murray leaves I am coming up to see you guys". We will see, the past several days he has had off, he didn't come see us, spent with OW.<P>Well, I am trying to keep up the happy front, but some days it is so hard to even get out of bed, let alone try to function.<P>Thanks for listening....<P><P>------------------<BR>God Bless you and yours,<P>Sheryl W.<P>www.widesmiles.org/gallery/britanie<BR>