No, Albany, you're right. Good grief....what did I start??????????????????????? Can you see the glow coming from the general direction of Texas? I swear, I've gone nuclear.


- Kimmy

If anyone can take being embarrassed--I would say you can and I have to say you have made me smile from ear to ear more then anyone lately and I just have to laugh about pop rocks-could see the possibilities and I just grin <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> I think my face hasn't grinned that much for sometime about a post.

Good Morning Ladies,

Guess what item I was shopping for yesterday & couldn't find???? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Embarrassed]" src="images/icons/blush.gif" />

Did some checking & know where 2 go now, gonna be fireworks in the ol homestead tonite! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" /> U R right Kimmy, we do need a devilish grin to use, & speaking of blue drinks, ever heard of hynotic?. It will put u in a trance!

Albany I had never heard of it at all & I told my girlfriends & they hadn't either, so of course they are all waiting for me to try it out.

Things were quiet last nite or should I say H was, so I was quiet 2. Going to Happy Hr. after work w/ the girls, so I won't be quiet tonite when I get home! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Hope everyone has a blessed day!

D'ya have a Cracker Barrell in your town? They have them there.......

I'm LMAO. Dh got the BIGGEST kick out of me telling ya'll. He chuckled for about 15 min. over that one!

Good luck and HAVE FUN!

- Kimmy

We do have a cracker barrell, I will find them though, girlfriend told me where to get them!

Glad your H got a good laugh outta that, I was laughing all day yesterday about it & this morning w/ my co workers.

I am off tomorrow but I'll be sure to give u an update, not a full one of course! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Embarrassed]" src="images/icons/blush.gif" />

Hi You all,

I really do not know what you all are talking about. Pop Rocks? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" /> I am in the dark age too. Babygirl I am so glad you had an open discussion with your husband. My relationship just took a nose dive. I really do hope you work things out. I have almost been a month without SF and I think I am turning into an evil witch. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />
HaHaHeHeHe!!! I am one sick puppy!! I was feeling very angry but this humor made me laugh. Thanks!!!

<small>[ July 01, 2004, 10:52 AM: Message edited by: Genia ]</small>

Ok girls!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Embarrassed]" src="images/icons/blush.gif" /> These poor men are in trouble this weekend! My friend was right its a full moon friday! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> Full moon,(') pop rocks, and the blue stuff! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" /> Oh yall have made my day. My nerves have been shot since I opened my check yesterday. And then lst night, whew I need a vacation. And my D being gone all week, I really miss her. I left a message at camp I was coming to get her tonight. BBG. I am praying that H turns around and stays around. Repairing M are hard work and you have to stay with it. You have bad days and then you have the good ones that you make "POP ROCK" history with! lol <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> Keep it up girls and keep praying.
<img border="0" title="" alt="[Cool]" src="images/icons/cool.gif" /> Sunny D
Delighted I only have 4 more hours of work
Delighted I have ya'll to talk to
Delighted I have God to guide me, (HOLD ME UP most of the time)
Delighted he's given me another day to love the ones I have in my life.

Can u believe I have 2 girlfiends trying to help me find these things?????

Everyone is curious - Kimmy you I started something girl. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

The best part is H will not have a clue he is getting ANYTHING tonite!

Genia - I've gone a month w/o SF by MY choice, I hope all gets better w/ H & soon. Praying for u 2.

Sunny - I have a long weekend to look forward 2, I hope u enjoy your vacation & take a rest from the mess! Did u get my email?

Hi Babygirl,

So how did it go? Hope you had as much fun last night as you planned. I find going without SF is kinda fun after initial frustration. Husband looks at me with longing eyes now. Something I never experienced much before with him.

<small>[ July 02, 2004, 09:01 AM: Message edited by: Genia ]</small>

So How did it go? Did it go as planned? Did H get his rocks off? (oh I am so bad ) I can't wait to hear from you to see how it went and just in case it didn't go - try and try again!!

JT

Patience, my dear friends. Remember, Baby has a long weekend and said she might not be able to post........

- Kimmy

Hello my dear friends,

I have missed you all!!

Well for the big update on "operation pop rocks" it was aborted cuz I was unable to find the necessary tools to complete the mission! We did however have a grrreaaatttt nite w/o them <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

In the last week I did however find something much better - PEACE, the peace that passes all your understanding, true & lasting peace in this situation in my M.

After almost 2 yrs. I have finally come to the conclusion that I must let God have my H, touch his heart, change his ways & actions & most of all bring him back out of the world, back to his first love which is Christ Jesus.

I am not going to put him out next week, I am now going to work on changing me - BabyGirl - that is all I can do, I have tried everything else that is for sure. I know now that I not only have to forgive but I have to restore, restore myself with God's help to the woman I was before the A & step daughter, no I will never be the same but I will be better. I have to help restore the relationship w/ H that I played a part in destroying with my control issues.

I know that God can & will restore my M & my husband in his own time.

R things totally different from before - no
Have I seen a great change in H - no
There has to be a change in me, & no it isn't fair that it should start w/ me - I didn't create this problem in our M but I have to change my outlook on this, I can no longer keep a record of all of H's mistakes & dwell on them. I have to look at what is positive in this situation & move on from there. Yes I have been terribly wronged, but I chose to live & enjoy my life in spite of it.

My H is now a father for the first time in his life, I pray that he will grow up in the Lord & be a Godly parent to this baby & the Godly man he used to be as the priest of our home, I pray that I will be a good stepmother to this baby & that our M will not only survive but thrive when many said "it is over, there is no coming back from this."

R there still issues to be worked out - yes
Have I taken leave of my senses & now think this will be easy no, there is still a lot of hard work to be done by both of us, but I know it has to start w/ me and it already has.

So that is my new out look ladies & I plan on keeping it! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

BBYG,

Whatever happened during this revalation you sure sound much better. I am so happy that you have at least found peace within yourself. I am glad that you have a good plan ahead of you to enable you to tackle this mess that has been put before you. Be the best that you can be. I am going to follow your lead and say BE BLESSED!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

GOD WILL PREVAIL!!

Love Ya,

JT

Wow BG!

My hat's off to you!

Letting go, and really, truly surrending it all to God is something I've struggled with my entire life. I can't tell you how many times I walked away from the altar, thinking this time I can do this...only to fail, and still hang on to crap, and go back to I-gotta-control-everything mode.

I bet you feel a whole lot "lighter" having handed it over to Him, hey?

Praying for you, and for the best of outcomes!

WB too! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

~ad

YEA BBG! I am so happy for you! I'm here and supporting you, but you've got the best backing you up (God)!

Pray that he lays His hand on your dh SOON!

And YO-BAH on the Wed fun - or was it Thurs? Don't remember - maybe it was Friday???? Okay. The blonde hair dye has penetrated the brain....eyes rolling back in the head....help!

- Kimmy

Thanks ladies,

I do feel better, wish it hadn't took ME so long to get it thru my thick head that I CANNOT CHANGE H, only me.

I am praying that it is God's desire to heal & restore my M, but even if it is not, I know he loves me & will be with me always - even unto the end of the world.

Yes, Kimmy it was last Thurs. nite, & Monday wasn't bad either <img border="0" title="" alt="[Embarrassed]" src="images/icons/blush.gif" /> , with just the smallest change in me I see a smaller one in H - the baby steps - they can be worth waiting for!

U R all in my prayers always! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

BBGY,
I am glad that you have decided to put GOD first in dealing with your M. I too have struggled with praying and telling God I release this to him, only to fall short and try to control H. I loved the message that you shared from Pastor Doreen. It really lifted my spirit. I often think that WHY should I shange when I did not cause this problem. But in order for our H to wnat change they have to see the GOD in us as wives. We have a pastor Doreen in the City that I live in(upstate New YOrk). Keep the faith and God will direct your path. pray, pray,pray,pray.

Lisa,

Thanks for your words of encouragement, I know I cannot go wrong if I let God lead & I follow.

I live in upstate NY also, maybe we r neighbors! Where about r u in NY?

This Pastor Doreen lives in Florida.

Take care keeping u in prayer too, this road cannot be traveled alone. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Hi Babygirl,

I am back from my trip and in better spirits. I am glad you feel positive. I pray God works on your husbands heart.

Whew,

I am loving this new me more & more. Yesterday H got a ltr. from CS, I asked him to open it & he kinda sighed but did. I then said nothing - just waited to seee if he would tell me what it said, before my revelation I got the ltr. on Sat., opened it & sent it to him again, <img border="0" title="" alt="[Embarrassed]" src="images/icons/blush.gif" /> - So I knew what it said, he is arrears & a payment plan has been set, after a few minutes H told me what it said & told me the truth! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> I only opened it cuz he has always been reluctant to share info. about CS, OW etc. That made me so happy. I told him I appreciated him sharing that w/ me. He was shocked by my calmness & me thanking him 4.

I was so happy about that - more baby steps. H also started working a 2nd job so that will make things less tense also. I just thank God 4 opening my eyes, I have such a positive outlook on myself H & our M now, one that I have not had in a long time.

I may even start a new thread 4 myself, this one is long & mostly filled with negative, sad stuff & by golly my sad days r over! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> .