Hi, Dita, did you watch the video and read the article I posted?

Let me point out that because you are addicted (and because your affair partner is addicted, too) there is an extraordinarily high risk that either of you will make contact again and rekindle the affair. That would make things far worse than they already are. The best way to prevent that is to come clean.

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How will I live with myself? Id rather suffer in silence:(

It's not just about you, though, right? Doesn't your husband deserve to know? To pull out of this and recover you're going to have to broaden your focus to think not just about yourself but about your husband.