My update...the new H I have is so wonderful, I don't quite know how to act. God has performed a true miracle in this marriage.<P>My request is that God will continue to protect and grow my rlationship with my husband. I praise His holy name everyday for the wonders I see in my husband, and for the miracle of the child we are expecting. I pray that He will give me the strength to continue to trust that HE can handle H without my help....I need to stop snooping
<BR>...and that He will help me to be a loving wife to H even after the baby is here and I become sleep deprived and focused on our little girl.<P>For each of you I pray to God that you will experience your own miracles in your marriages. I have not always had a strong faith, and I am simply overwhelmed at the joy and love that has been brought back into my life. It will be a hard road for me to accept that I deserve all this....from my background, I was always the one who earned love by being whatever everyone wanted, the one who gladly sacrificed for anyone else who wanted what I had to give. Now God has given me this wonderful gift of reconciliation, and H is treating me lovingly without my doing anything to "earn" it....I'm afraid sometimes that I'll sabotage it on purpose because it is so unfamiliar. I pray that God will support me in learning to just be loved.<P>Kim