Happy Anniversary to Me! - 11/16/00 12:49 PM
I am feeling very excited and looking forward to our celebration. We are going up the North Shore this week-end to celebrate out 34th! Fireplace, Hottub the works! I told my h how lucky I am to have him in my life and the best part is I mean it. He told me that was one of the nicest things I've ever said to him. <P>I never would of believed that there could be restoration to this degree in my marriage. The depth of betrayal goes so deep and when you are in the thick of it it just seems that there is no way through the maze.<P>I want to encourage all who read this post to hang in there. Even when there looks like no hope hang onto the thread and keep trusting in God. Someone once said when you feel like you can't hang on any longer God will tie a knot in the end and give you the strength to endure!<P>This has been the toughest 4 years of my life and I wouldn't want to go through it again but the thing is I actually have a more secure marriage today then I ever had before the betrayal. Little things like not being afraid to not say I love you before you end a phone conversation.......I was so insecure that even that was unthinkable. Love isn't being afraid!<P>We celebrated our 30th anniversary 2 weeks before D-day. My husband brough 30 long stem red roses into work, he brought them himself and presented them to me before all of my co-workers, I was so proud. I know he loved me then but now its so different. God has brought us to a point where fear is gone and oneness is real. Love is a committment that should never end no matter what. Sometimes we don't have a choice to remain in a marriage when the other person wants out but love remains a choice. <P>Don't be the one who gives up before the miracle happens!<P>Thanks for being here everyone, I appreciate all of you and your thoughts so very much.<P>Praise and Thanksgiving to El Roi.......the God who really sees!<P>Blessings, Taj<P>------------------<BR>"Perfect love casts out fear" I John 4:18