new here--please pray for me - 06/13/02 03:37 AM
My story is a long one, I will try to keep it short for all of you, but feel free to ask anything.<p>Hubby & I have been married 10 yrs, after dating for 1 year. During our dating period, he was the most generous caring person I had ever meet, & truly felt as if he was my prince.<p>Within 2 months after wedding, hubby was cheating, I have only recently found out about this one. She had a child & hubby could possibly be father.<p>Approximatly 2 yrs later I caught hubby with another woman, evidence was overwelming, but didn't catch him in the actuall act itself. After confronting hubby, he denied & continued to see OW. Told H how much this bothered me, begged him to quit, but H kept stating that he did not want to be rude. He finally stopped when i threatened to leave.<p>since then there have been several "one-nighters" or short lived affairs. I have told H that I have a hard time trusting him, & have tried many times to talk to him, he continues to deny anything. He says he does not want anyone else, does not want me to leave, etc.<p>I had often thought that if I could catch H in the act, he would have to admit, & could rebuild. Lately I have begun to wander if he ever did admit, would I ever be able to really trust him again, after so many years of lying, & that the only confession would be because of being caught, & not guilt.<p>I know that only the Lord can change a person, & truly belive that this is the only way, but then I wander if my H is on his list, or if he will be a "lost soul"<p>Anyone have any help for me on this? The pain I feel is almost unbearable, can't eat, can't sleep. PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!