Jim’s wife called me at work and started yelling at me. Jim had given her my number. At this point I didn’t even know what she knew about me. She started out by telling me about
David’s emails and telling me the geographic location they came from, in order to help me out. She offered to forward them to me. But then she lit into me about the affair and the emails and even told me that it was my own fault that I got raped and beaten. She then proceeded to tell me that their marriage has never been stronger and that they are going to go to counseling and work it out. She said that all of this has been a good thing. She said that it all ends here and that Jim and I can no longer speak, ever, about anything.
Should his wife have said you were responsible for the rape, beating.. No that was uncalled for. But in comparision to what the two of you have done to her. I would say your verbal pain is far less than the pain you and her husband created for her. I just don't see where you show any significant sympathy toward this woman, or much responsiblity for you role in this.
I see now that it was all about him, from the very beginning. How could I have been such a fool?
Fool yes, but all about him. Again you both screwed up. Did you honestly expect to have an affair while married, with a married man, and "live happily ever after". I guess you will just have to consider this a life lesson.
Someone please tell me what a jerk this guy is and that I need to get over him because he sucks.
He's a jerk for having any relationship with you while married, or better to say he's human and made a mistake. Just like yourself for having an A while you were also married. Do you feel you are that much better because you returned from your A=affair and asked for a D=divorce? You seem to be wanting someone here to tell you what you have done is OK? So far the only thing I have read that makes sense in all of this would be. His latest action to work on his M with his W=wife, and provide there child with the father the innocent kid deserves. In order to do this, for the sake of his W, NO CONTACT with you is mandatory. If you can not understand that, you should look at it from the perspective of this wife.
I still feel the need to run to him and I don’t know if that will go away. I guess I fell back in love.
Repsect their wishes. Do not be the OW that won't go away. Your pain, and feeling of lose is the typical fall out post A. They have enough on there plate right now. Do not add to having to deal with you trying to make contact.
didn’t act like a man and end it with me himself (he had his wife call me!).
He probably ended it the way his W wanted him to. Respecting her wishes. Again she is his WIFE.
He let me spend all that time and money to fill his void and then got rid of me when I became an inconvience.
Again, You take no responsible for this?
he showed her all of my emails and pictures! He didn’t delete any of them! Who knows what they will do with them now.
It's call coming clean with everything. It is required to ensure no more fall out is felt in the future.
They might even be enjoying them together.
I would bet she gets NO enjoyment in seeing those pictures. I will leave my comments at that.
Someone also please tell me how his wife could forgive him so soon?
The same way most of us here have. We love our spouses, and unfortunately an action like this while THE MOST painful thing I have ever endured (which includes lose of a close family member). She is just now seeing for the first time "I am losing my husband" or have lost my husband. Is willing to fight to keep him first and foremost, and deal with the pain and again post affair fall out along the way.
Have you never loved anyone that much? The last man you married for example?
I do want him to suffer, at least for a little while. I never wanted them to break up. I just want him to go through a little bit of bad times for awhile like me.
sorry can't bit my tongue anymore,
here come the 2X4's
Your a real catch! With comments like this from a so called educated professional, with a good family back ground? You have issues. I would suggest you seek counsel FAST.
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You seem to be very self centered. I can assure you, He is going thru a very rough time. That not only afffects him, but his whole family.
Instead I have to hear how happy he is. I keep thinking of ways to get revenge. I still have all of this emails and pictures and feel like sending them to all of his friends and family and fellow Marines. I could hire my own PI and figure out where to send them all. I’m sure Jim would retaliate against me for that, but I have nothing to lose and there’s absolutely nothing they can do to hurt me more.
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I am all alone. I have thoughts of suicide every day. The other night I even tried mixing a ton of vodka with my antibiotics, just to see what fate had in store for me. I walk right into traffic without even looking. Things are not good and I have no one to talk to. David may still be in the area, so I can’t tell my husband, friends, or family what is going on for fear of their safety.
You need help NOW. Tell your family, your doctor, everyone. Get help immediately! How is your families safety in jeapordy if you go to them for help and support?
I don’t know how to get over this. I can deal with losing Jim in a relationship kind of way, but not as a friend.
It doesn't work that way. You say you just want the friend, but thats not being honest. You do not want to let go of the possiblity of having something more, and you would be happy to be "friends" today, because it's better for YOU than losing him cold turkey, but in the back of your mind, you just want that door not to lock. You want it open just a crack, so I can work my way back in!
You might qualify this as a negative response. I know it's not what you want to hear. But you need to hear it none the less.
You really need to focus on getting yourself fixed.
Good luck to you, and please read all you can on this site. Hopefully it will help you see abit clearer.