Saw my EX today .. NC with him still ongoing but its hard - 08/24/06 03:27 PM
This morning was a test for me. they are fixing the street in front of my house and the comapany my Ex works for is the ones doing the concrete.
This morning they were pouring the concrete and guess who the driver was? If you guessed my EX your right. There he was big a life standing in front of the house. I was home alone and could not help but watch out the window at him. a small part of me was hoping he would try and come to the door. hard to imagine he has totally forgotten about our lives together and he can pretend I don't exsist anymore. I wish I could feel that way.
It took all I had in me not to go outside and say something to him. I just wanted to see where his mind set is. But I already know that deep down inside. He is still angry and using all of his justifications.
I guess after almost a year and a half and he still is acting the same he is just as foggy as ever. Makes ya wonder if he will be foggy forever.
Seeing him so close and yet so far away is still hard for me. I do believe he is afraid to speak to me , afraid I will let the OW know about it.
He has yet to let me know where he and my son have moved to. I do know the address as my SIL found it last sunday. EXWH called his sister whinning about people spying on him. He says no one needs to see where he lives. Why do we all sneak around looking? No one sneaks around it was pure luck my SIL saw the house with his truck parked there. And he just happened to see her drive by and went nuts about it.
As well such is life I guess....
This morning they were pouring the concrete and guess who the driver was? If you guessed my EX your right. There he was big a life standing in front of the house. I was home alone and could not help but watch out the window at him. a small part of me was hoping he would try and come to the door. hard to imagine he has totally forgotten about our lives together and he can pretend I don't exsist anymore. I wish I could feel that way.
It took all I had in me not to go outside and say something to him. I just wanted to see where his mind set is. But I already know that deep down inside. He is still angry and using all of his justifications.
I guess after almost a year and a half and he still is acting the same he is just as foggy as ever. Makes ya wonder if he will be foggy forever.
Seeing him so close and yet so far away is still hard for me. I do believe he is afraid to speak to me , afraid I will let the OW know about it.
He has yet to let me know where he and my son have moved to. I do know the address as my SIL found it last sunday. EXWH called his sister whinning about people spying on him. He says no one needs to see where he lives. Why do we all sneak around looking? No one sneaks around it was pure luck my SIL saw the house with his truck parked there. And he just happened to see her drive by and went nuts about it.
As well such is life I guess....