I'm having a really great day! I really feel like I have vented, partied, dated, retaliated to the point now where I really feel like I'm at peace w/ what was done to me. Now, I'm looking forward to how I can make amends and turn my life, my fWxW's life, and my family's life back around. I realize now the totallity of what I have done. In hindsight though, I still have no idea what to do or not to do after a D-DAY, but I can tell you, it doesn't bother me much anymore at all.(MAYBE JUST THE TIME PASSING?) Maybe because I saw the life I fantasised about, and its just not who I am. I'm just a family guy, living a life I am just not comfortable in. So, I head back to mend fences after a journey that took me to places I never thought possible. I think after Christmas is when the A really didn't matter anymore.(Looking back) I'm beginning to fill in the two graves I dug so deep. I'm going home to fix what was broken. What a life!!

PEACE,

Dude

Dig one for the WW, and one for the OM.

The thought crosses my mind all the time...

I pray that I don't act on the thought, but...

You scare me EVERY SINGLE TIME I see you say something like this, Dude...There WAS another way to get through what happened to you...Sleeping with everything that moved was NOT the "only" way, and you continue to imply this...

I wish you well, but I don't see things working out well, unless and until you get that...Your level of insecurity is gonna be your downfall...You've let outside things determine your worth - instead of deciding for yourself that you are worthy...When you do that, you give away all of your power to OTHERS...It is a very wayward characteristic...Do you see this?

Mrs. W

On Krazy's thread you wrote this:

The "real, good, honest you" slept around with these women who had rotten husbands and were sceptical of men. The last one of these women seemed to have some feelings for you. Did she fall in love with you? Was she happy again? If not her, somebody did and was, according to you. What did you do to her love and happiness?

You took out your revenge for your ex wife's actions on these women. Now that they have fulfilled your purpose you intend to assume your position in the family again. Was that really good and honest of you?

How did your divorce affect your children? Was their broken family a price that they should have paid for your revenge?

Who are the two graves really for?

"They are very skeptical (sic) of men and rightly so, but if you show them the real, good, honest you, they will fall in love and you will be happy again."

Gee, I bet they're not sceptical of men anymore after meeting you. You manipulate them, pretend you're a good guy and then leave them wondering what they did wrong *this* time after they've "fallen in love with you." "You" will be happy again. Meanwhile, "they" are probably devastated and heartbroken.

What is so scary is that you don't even see what you've done to innocent people. It makes my flesh creep.

Your name should be on one of those "avoid this man at all costs" websites.

Sorry, I had to t/j here.
Jen, do you spell it "sceptical" in NZ? I noticed that you put the (sic) beside "skeptical" and that's how we spell it here in the states.

I was just curious. I find the variances in the English language very entertaining.

and \ t/j

Sorry!

t/j yes, we spell it sceptical lol. It's like our pronunciation of schedule. Everyone over 35 says shedule, anyone under 35 says scedule. end t/j