i wrote this to OW...bye bye H! - 07/08/00 01:01 PM
<<<hey, you were right, we are not enemies.<BR>i just want to tell you that you can feel secure that you are truly THE love<BR>of cliff's life. i just found out you met his family formally (would you<BR>believe he spent $800 to get me that ticket to hawaii for easter?!?!?<BR>amazing). they never seemed to think much of me, but they seem like nice<BR>enough folks.<BR>listen, i don't know why he's telling me he loves me and wants to work it<BR>out with me, but he is, and im sorry for it. it's a ridiculous joke. (he<BR>said he was afraid of losing both of us once, so that's why he would not<BR>divorce me, so he'd at least have SOMEONE).<BR>listen, as a good mother, too, you can understand my concern on this one<BR>issue: would you mind not seeing my children quite yet? i don't want them to<BR>become attached to someone till it is really carved in stone. it seems that<BR>is the case where you're concerned, but i really don't want to risk their<BR>emotional health at this fragile time in their lives. i appreciate your<BR>understanding on this one.<BR>i want to apologize for my angry and childish behavior in the past, but i<BR>was monumentally confused by cliff's telling me he wants me, while clearly<BR>acting otherwise. i just let my emotions take control for awhile.<BR>anyway, cliff goes on and on about how similar we are, and how we'd make<BR>great friends. im not completely closed to the idea, as my dad's first two<BR>wives have been great friends for years. you are obviously a great mother,<BR>and cliff loves your girls dearly.<BR>i wish you the best, and i hope this whole mess gets straightened out as<BR>quickly as possible.<BR>good luck,<BR>julie>>><P>I just had to get this all on the table, im sick of H jerking us both around, so what do you all think? he's told me flat out that whatever she and i discuss is not his business, and i think he's wanting us to fight it out and make his decision for him. im not playing that game anymore.<P>everyone have a great weekend, and please don't use me as an example, most betrayers are not as sick as my stbx (yes, no matter how bad it seems, it can always be worse, i have not forgotten the blessings ive received, but i can't do this anymore).<BR>julie