Sorry guys need a good vent! - 04/21/01 12:04 AM
Boy, I need to vent! I'm feeling like everything is my fault right now even though I know better. Today, ex came home and everything was just fine. I casually mentioned that a friend had mentioned that when the time comes she would love to go to childbirth classes with me. <P>Ex becomes enraged. He says that he has no say in anything blah, blah, blah. Well, last I heard he was moving out, thought I was making a mistake by having this baby, still thinks that I should have an abortion, etc. Not to mention, most of his recent actions are unsupportive. Recently, told me that I should go and down and apply for AFDC and tell them I didn't know who the father was. It took me a while to pick my jaw up off of the floor on that one.<P>Sooo, I calmly told him that I was trying my best to plan the future, and I was afraid to mention anything to him in fear of his becoming angry. He had made his opinions very clear. Thus, I felt he really didn't want much to do with the situation anyway. <P>He tells me that I have no clue what he is going through nor do I even care. I told him I knew he had a lot of stress on him also, but that I felt I couldn't come to him with any issues because I'm afraid he is just going to turn his back on me again. I explained that all of the promises he made to me when he returned home had not materialized in the slightest (going to counseling, cutting contact with ow, spending time together, etc.) Boy, did that one set him off! He screamed that he didn't think that he should have to do any of those things because he doesn't feel that is what he wants. Okay, so it all boils down to what he wants!!! <P>He continues to rant and rave and tell me how all fights are my fault. At this point, I'm good and pissed. He then rather sarcasticly asks me if I wanted to know what he was thinking about today? Okay, this is the part where I'm a bad girl. I said "why is it that you only want to inform me of what your thinking about in a fight?" Why can't you just say "hey, you know I've been thinking about...?" <P>Now, what is really driving me crazy is that he always pulls this crap and says "I was really thinking about sticking around, but because YOU started this fight, I've changed my mind." Nine times out of ten he says this. And I'm sure that is where he was going with the "do you what to know what I was thinking today comment", being that is usually the words he uses to start off with. YUCK! <P>Anyway, he stormed off and left. Now, that I've got it all off my chest, (thanks ) am I really egging some of this on? I am at the end of my rope and wish he'd just make up his mind!