Heartbroken - And it's My Fault.... - 05/01/07 09:42 PM
I guess my story is one that has played out hundreds of times due to the computer age. What seemed like harmless fun, became a disaster and now I've lost the one person in my life who truly made me whole. Here's the story...
My wife (appears to soon be my ex) is my best friend. We have been madly in love for over 10 years. Things have been great with no major upsets during our time, in fact, overcoming some tough things along the way.
Over the weekend, my wife discovered a secret email account that I used to talk to people online. She believes I have been having affairs and served me with papers 2 days later. To her credit, she has been very calm and collected and willing to work together to have a smooth property settlement. Reconciliation does not seem to be an option right now....
The emails I was trading with other were from online ads. Nothing ever happened but because of the detail of the email, my wife is not convinced. I can't blame her for her reaction because she is a very strong a bright woman. I am staring at a picture of her on my desk as I write this about ready to cry....
She knows I am sorry and I believe that she does forgive me. This is about the issue of trust which is so very big with her and should be. She has made the statement that we can be friends but romance will never be an option. I have told her that I know I need help with this and someday, she will be in a position where she will have to decide whether I am worth another chance because she will KNOW that I have changed.
I am seeking counseling (which is a pain to find, I had no idea... ) and I am returning to church for the first time in years. I have asked God on a daily basis for his forgiveness and to look out for her. Maybe, just maybe, if I am very lucky, I will get that chance that I so desperately need...
Thanks for listening....please pray for both of us...
My wife (appears to soon be my ex) is my best friend. We have been madly in love for over 10 years. Things have been great with no major upsets during our time, in fact, overcoming some tough things along the way.
Over the weekend, my wife discovered a secret email account that I used to talk to people online. She believes I have been having affairs and served me with papers 2 days later. To her credit, she has been very calm and collected and willing to work together to have a smooth property settlement. Reconciliation does not seem to be an option right now....
The emails I was trading with other were from online ads. Nothing ever happened but because of the detail of the email, my wife is not convinced. I can't blame her for her reaction because she is a very strong a bright woman. I am staring at a picture of her on my desk as I write this about ready to cry....
She knows I am sorry and I believe that she does forgive me. This is about the issue of trust which is so very big with her and should be. She has made the statement that we can be friends but romance will never be an option. I have told her that I know I need help with this and someday, she will be in a position where she will have to decide whether I am worth another chance because she will KNOW that I have changed.
I am seeking counseling (which is a pain to find, I had no idea... ) and I am returning to church for the first time in years. I have asked God on a daily basis for his forgiveness and to look out for her. Maybe, just maybe, if I am very lucky, I will get that chance that I so desperately need...
Thanks for listening....please pray for both of us...