Well, here I am - 09/27/07 07:15 PM
I used to be active on the EN boards but haven't posted much for quite awhile until a few just recently. I've been wanting to post here but have been reluctant. It makes it feel more real and I still can't believe it's actually happening.
My story is long so I won't go into all of it. The main points are I've tried for almost 7 years to make a marriage work with a man who never really loved me, wasn't attracted to me and wasn't interested in sharing his life with me. He wasn't interested in my life back home either. I moved from America to be with him here in Europe.
He's not the man I thought I was marrying. He admits he was "Cary Grant" and it's not easy to keep that up. He didn't want to get married but didn't tell me because he didn't want to hurt me. Oops. He gets what he's done but there is alot he has never gotten.
I've been to ****** and back. I'm pretty proud of myself for surviving all that life has thrown at me these last years and I've learned a ton. Now, we've decided to let go. Or he's decided to let me, or whatever. I always knew this day would come but I always hoped it wouldn't. I DO believe in MB and in making things work, because it IS possible when both want it.
It's hard to let go of the marriage but not as hard as letting go of my life here in Norway. I've worked really hard for it. It's hard to say goodbye to friends, my STB-EX's family, my home, my business and my dog. 16 hours after I do that I land in the States to start my new life which can't be completely planned for and it's pretty overwhelming.
So that is what I am struggling with. So much happening, so suddenly. I know I have to deal with it and I know I will survive. I'm strong. I know my loved ones send me off with support and best wishes. My family and friends will great me with support and a hope for the best for me. It's up to me to create my life again. At least now I see something of what my future can look like.
I am lucky that my business is easily mobil and I can still keep my clients in Europe and build my business in the States. I'm a Life Coach so I do alot of work by phone already. Whew!!
I know I have alot of healing to do. I'm not worried about a new R. I believe the right person will come when I am living my best life.
This is where I am at in the process. Just wanted to introduce myself. Looking forward to getting to know you all here.
Symphony
My story is long so I won't go into all of it. The main points are I've tried for almost 7 years to make a marriage work with a man who never really loved me, wasn't attracted to me and wasn't interested in sharing his life with me. He wasn't interested in my life back home either. I moved from America to be with him here in Europe.
He's not the man I thought I was marrying. He admits he was "Cary Grant" and it's not easy to keep that up. He didn't want to get married but didn't tell me because he didn't want to hurt me. Oops. He gets what he's done but there is alot he has never gotten.
I've been to ****** and back. I'm pretty proud of myself for surviving all that life has thrown at me these last years and I've learned a ton. Now, we've decided to let go. Or he's decided to let me, or whatever. I always knew this day would come but I always hoped it wouldn't. I DO believe in MB and in making things work, because it IS possible when both want it.
It's hard to let go of the marriage but not as hard as letting go of my life here in Norway. I've worked really hard for it. It's hard to say goodbye to friends, my STB-EX's family, my home, my business and my dog. 16 hours after I do that I land in the States to start my new life which can't be completely planned for and it's pretty overwhelming.
So that is what I am struggling with. So much happening, so suddenly. I know I have to deal with it and I know I will survive. I'm strong. I know my loved ones send me off with support and best wishes. My family and friends will great me with support and a hope for the best for me. It's up to me to create my life again. At least now I see something of what my future can look like.
I am lucky that my business is easily mobil and I can still keep my clients in Europe and build my business in the States. I'm a Life Coach so I do alot of work by phone already. Whew!!
I know I have alot of healing to do. I'm not worried about a new R. I believe the right person will come when I am living my best life.
This is where I am at in the process. Just wanted to introduce myself. Looking forward to getting to know you all here.
Symphony