Hannah,<P>My ex walked out on xmas and never came back. I can't tell you how it feels to live in the same household personally, but I have known 3 different couples who have tried it and it WAS most definetly a nightmare. It puts your life on hold, it is hard because the kids are smart enough to feel the tension and it was a lot of stress for everyone. In all the cases, as far as I know, when the betraying spouse left, it was much easier for everyone.<P>Not only that, but the divorce process is very difficult. For me anyway, all I can say is that I get nervous a few days before court and it doesn't go away til a few hours after court. I also get the pleasure of facing my ex and OW when I am there. The whole thing is a nightmare, from the moment you find out about the affair, right on through. I am not divorced yet, but I suspect it will be a while before my life settles down and I can feel closure from the divorce.<P>Be strong. Do what you can to keep your strength and let your friends and family help you. Get ready for the roller coaster but we're all riding it with you
<P>Prayers to you, Dana<BR>