Isn't your butt sore from sitting on that fence for so long? - 01/06/04 03:59 AM
I have been trying to just keep my chin up and be strong, but it is hard when my husband keeps throwing me for a loop. His behavior reminds me of a book title I saw recently, "Dated Jekyll, Married Hyde." <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />
* I love OW - No, actually I just want to be with her to find out if this is my child. So, I keep her happy.
* His "I love you" to me turns into "I care so much about you."
* I don't care about your feelings, but I am sorry I hurt you and understand what I have done to you. I don't want you to be upset.
* I have already moved on, but I hurt every day.
* Come here and let me hold you, but not for too long because I have to check in with my warden (OW) every 1/2 hour on the dot! She is trying to keep him on a TIGHT leash and calls him constantly.
etc. etc. This list could take up several pages. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> I'm sure you get the point.
We are preparing to go to Plan B at the end of this month. He is not willing to give up his OW even though he admits she is not anything to brag about. He knows she's worthless. Still she's the one getting lots of attention and affection, while I mostly get the cold shoulder.
Every day my heart seems to break all over again. One day he is almost kind, the next mean-spirited and malicious. I miss the man I married so much... I am beginning to understand why this happened. We have had several very meaningful conversations. I know he loves me. Why won't he just stop this?
Is anyone there? I could really use some cheering up and/or good advice.
Blessings,
Blue <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />
<small>[ January 06, 2004, 08:58 AM: Message edited by: GloomyBlue ]</small>
* I love OW - No, actually I just want to be with her to find out if this is my child. So, I keep her happy.
* His "I love you" to me turns into "I care so much about you."
* I don't care about your feelings, but I am sorry I hurt you and understand what I have done to you. I don't want you to be upset.
* I have already moved on, but I hurt every day.
* Come here and let me hold you, but not for too long because I have to check in with my warden (OW) every 1/2 hour on the dot! She is trying to keep him on a TIGHT leash and calls him constantly.
etc. etc. This list could take up several pages. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> I'm sure you get the point.
We are preparing to go to Plan B at the end of this month. He is not willing to give up his OW even though he admits she is not anything to brag about. He knows she's worthless. Still she's the one getting lots of attention and affection, while I mostly get the cold shoulder.
Every day my heart seems to break all over again. One day he is almost kind, the next mean-spirited and malicious. I miss the man I married so much... I am beginning to understand why this happened. We have had several very meaningful conversations. I know he loves me. Why won't he just stop this?
Is anyone there? I could really use some cheering up and/or good advice.
Blessings,
Blue <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />
<small>[ January 06, 2004, 08:58 AM: Message edited by: GloomyBlue ]</small>