Excellent news Jan 5 - Life is good! On cloud nine here. - 01/05/04 07:29 AM
Hi Everyone,
I can't believe this weekend's happenings. I really can't say too much as I don't wish to break a trust with my exH, even here in this anonymous forum.
All I wish to say is that today my dream and deepest desire in life came true. My hopes and prayers have been answered. It's an ecstasy I've never known as I lost a treasure and now it's been found, and is coming back forever. It feels like someone has died, and has come back to life. (Something did die-- our marriage.) Words of forgiveness, words of love, passionate, tender expressions --G rated <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> --were exchanged.
Beyond that and most importantly, there's a future together and it will all be changing in the very near future--within a week in fact. It will all be very private, and will be shared by only us and our children. No one will know until after it happens, except for us.
It has been talk, talk, talk---learn learn learn. It is like coming home. The treasure we had for so many years is back.
Even today I learned more, and we'll continue to learn more, together.
I know I won't be coming here to MB much. I'm putting this behind us. We spoke of this today. It's a chapter that is part of us, but it's not who we are. It will still be dealt with , but we know it's all going to be fine and our future will be even stronger.
I will be spending time with him, near him, enjoying him and attending to our commitment as we once did, before things fell apart.
Life is good, isn't it? IT's a mixture of sweet, and bitter. Hard to focus on the sweet when things are awful, but time and patience--right everyone?
I'll never take him or our marriage or love for each other for granted again.
If you feel like giving up, don't. Wait until you're sure in your heart and soul that it's what you want to do.
The time he took ignoring me, rejecting me, (separation was over three years ago- DDay almost three years ago... my A ended July '02) while he explored other avenues in life was necessary for him. It's over now. He's back in my life, and that's where he wants to be. He's apologized for his behavior during all this time apart, but he didn't need to. I told him it was necessary for him, and for us. The time apart taught both of us A LOT!
He didn't say it, but perhaps he knows..that my continued expression of love for him and 'plan A' despite his rejection and ignoring me was evidence that I loved him...especially as this went on for quite a while.
He was in a 'fog' of his own. THere were outside influences pulling him away from me . I instinctively knew this, and my intuition was right. I could have confronted him on it, but then that wouldn't have given him the time he needed.
One joy today was in my DD helping me pick out what to wear for an upcoming important but simple occasion. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> I'm sure this occasion is the desire of almost all children whose parents are divorced and had a good marriage until the crisis at the end.
I could go on, but I will just say thanks to all here for your unending support and encouragement. I couldn't have done it at all without this BB and the people here.
YOu kept me going when I was really down. Thanks for that.
God bless all of you,
Hopeful_Person
PS I'd like to get a puppy and name it Hope! Maybe in time we will. ExH always loved a certain breed, and wanted one. Maybe it's time? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
<small>[ January 05, 2004, 01:32 AM: Message edited by: hopeful_person ]</small>
I can't believe this weekend's happenings. I really can't say too much as I don't wish to break a trust with my exH, even here in this anonymous forum.
All I wish to say is that today my dream and deepest desire in life came true. My hopes and prayers have been answered. It's an ecstasy I've never known as I lost a treasure and now it's been found, and is coming back forever. It feels like someone has died, and has come back to life. (Something did die-- our marriage.) Words of forgiveness, words of love, passionate, tender expressions --G rated <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> --were exchanged.
Beyond that and most importantly, there's a future together and it will all be changing in the very near future--within a week in fact. It will all be very private, and will be shared by only us and our children. No one will know until after it happens, except for us.
It has been talk, talk, talk---learn learn learn. It is like coming home. The treasure we had for so many years is back.
Even today I learned more, and we'll continue to learn more, together.
I know I won't be coming here to MB much. I'm putting this behind us. We spoke of this today. It's a chapter that is part of us, but it's not who we are. It will still be dealt with , but we know it's all going to be fine and our future will be even stronger.
I will be spending time with him, near him, enjoying him and attending to our commitment as we once did, before things fell apart.
Life is good, isn't it? IT's a mixture of sweet, and bitter. Hard to focus on the sweet when things are awful, but time and patience--right everyone?
I'll never take him or our marriage or love for each other for granted again.
If you feel like giving up, don't. Wait until you're sure in your heart and soul that it's what you want to do.
The time he took ignoring me, rejecting me, (separation was over three years ago- DDay almost three years ago... my A ended July '02) while he explored other avenues in life was necessary for him. It's over now. He's back in my life, and that's where he wants to be. He's apologized for his behavior during all this time apart, but he didn't need to. I told him it was necessary for him, and for us. The time apart taught both of us A LOT!
He didn't say it, but perhaps he knows..that my continued expression of love for him and 'plan A' despite his rejection and ignoring me was evidence that I loved him...especially as this went on for quite a while.
He was in a 'fog' of his own. THere were outside influences pulling him away from me . I instinctively knew this, and my intuition was right. I could have confronted him on it, but then that wouldn't have given him the time he needed.
One joy today was in my DD helping me pick out what to wear for an upcoming important but simple occasion. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> I'm sure this occasion is the desire of almost all children whose parents are divorced and had a good marriage until the crisis at the end.
I could go on, but I will just say thanks to all here for your unending support and encouragement. I couldn't have done it at all without this BB and the people here.
YOu kept me going when I was really down. Thanks for that.
God bless all of you,
Hopeful_Person
PS I'd like to get a puppy and name it Hope! Maybe in time we will. ExH always loved a certain breed, and wanted one. Maybe it's time? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
<small>[ January 05, 2004, 01:32 AM: Message edited by: hopeful_person ]</small>