Wondering If I Should Go Back With Ex - 01/27/11 11:20 PM
I can�t get online as often as I like, but I hope enough of you remember me to offer some advice and encouragement.
Is it normal to pine away for one�s ex and the relationship you used to have even though they�ve hurt you?
For those who like details:
Last month I had a couple of devastating events (including financial distress). When my ex came to pick up our son (first time seeing him in 6 months) we talked for a long time, first about the financial situation (a mortgage that affects both of us) and then about random other things- his school, other little things. It felt like he was relieved to have someone he could really talk to. And for a moment, I felt like I had my best friend back. We�ve talked a bit on the phone, too, and it�s almost like old times. Someone I can totally just be myself around.
Now I am wondering if I should give him another chance. My ex is making a lot of changes I wish he would have made earlier. He says he would never have made these changes if I hadn�t left him.
When we first divorced, I was thrilled to be free of his destructive habits. My son�s behavior and confidence improved. My OWN confidence and health definitely improved. A year of counseling helped. But now the military has moved us out of state and my son has been miserable these last six months- acting out and constantly crying about missing his dad. I�ve tried to get him involved with church and other youth activities but it�s not helping.
I�ve got a lot of friends/family pulling for us to get back together. And now that I�m dating again, I�ve discovered that I just don�t *like* most guys. I genuinely *liked* my ex, and I�ve always had a spot in my heart for him. I think if these changes he is making are permanent, we might could get back together (although, I would never co-mingle our finances again).
But there�s a HUGE problem: sexual desire. I�ve never had it for my ex. Rarely had it at all in my whole life (read my thread If You Were Never Attracted to Spouse...Read This )
I was caught quite off guard last year when I started dating an old acquaintance. He was one of few men in my past that I had felt �butterflies� for (and this is why I called him up). He was still hot, fun, and had money. At first, there were no butterflies with him, but over time they returned and even became stronger: I actually developed sexual desire for him. I moved away 6 months ago, so that relationship crumbled.
It�s so rare to find someone who induces these kinds of feelings, I�m wondering if it would better for all of us (especially my son) if I would just forget about it and work on rebuilding with my ex. I don�t know why he would be happy with going back to a woman who was never attracted to him, but he appears to be interested.
Would like to know what you all think?
Is it normal to pine away for one�s ex and the relationship you used to have even though they�ve hurt you?
For those who like details:
Last month I had a couple of devastating events (including financial distress). When my ex came to pick up our son (first time seeing him in 6 months) we talked for a long time, first about the financial situation (a mortgage that affects both of us) and then about random other things- his school, other little things. It felt like he was relieved to have someone he could really talk to. And for a moment, I felt like I had my best friend back. We�ve talked a bit on the phone, too, and it�s almost like old times. Someone I can totally just be myself around.
Now I am wondering if I should give him another chance. My ex is making a lot of changes I wish he would have made earlier. He says he would never have made these changes if I hadn�t left him.
When we first divorced, I was thrilled to be free of his destructive habits. My son�s behavior and confidence improved. My OWN confidence and health definitely improved. A year of counseling helped. But now the military has moved us out of state and my son has been miserable these last six months- acting out and constantly crying about missing his dad. I�ve tried to get him involved with church and other youth activities but it�s not helping.
I�ve got a lot of friends/family pulling for us to get back together. And now that I�m dating again, I�ve discovered that I just don�t *like* most guys. I genuinely *liked* my ex, and I�ve always had a spot in my heart for him. I think if these changes he is making are permanent, we might could get back together (although, I would never co-mingle our finances again).
But there�s a HUGE problem: sexual desire. I�ve never had it for my ex. Rarely had it at all in my whole life (read my thread If You Were Never Attracted to Spouse...Read This )
I was caught quite off guard last year when I started dating an old acquaintance. He was one of few men in my past that I had felt �butterflies� for (and this is why I called him up). He was still hot, fun, and had money. At first, there were no butterflies with him, but over time they returned and even became stronger: I actually developed sexual desire for him. I moved away 6 months ago, so that relationship crumbled.
It�s so rare to find someone who induces these kinds of feelings, I�m wondering if it would better for all of us (especially my son) if I would just forget about it and work on rebuilding with my ex. I don�t know why he would be happy with going back to a woman who was never attracted to him, but he appears to be interested.
Would like to know what you all think?