I am so "lucky" (I guess I am not that lucky or I would not be in this situation) my H says he will help me and work through my emotional roller coaster for the rest of his life, he is just thankful he is given the chance to work through all of this. He is very remorseful and so wants to make our marriage better than ever. He encourages me to not hide any of the emotions I am going through. I am thinking of talking to my doctor though and get some sort of help because anxiety seems to be taking over now. There is so much more to the story and what we have to get through all because of a drunken one night stand. So, I have a lot of physical symptoms too. Talking with my H has been the best to work through my swings but a little extra help maybe called for. <P>------------------<BR>Carrie