I'm with Sisyphus...<P>My dear... you sound like you want to be in control also. Please, no offense. I understand your perspective and your experience how you are wary... BUT, where does trusting in God come in? <P>Wise as a serpant<BR>Gentle as a dove<P>I'm with Sisyphus... we're here for you as you go through step by step but please ask yourself, WHO do you trust? YOURSELF? YOUR H? or ...?<P>Have a great day! Shalom!<P>------------------<BR><I>As iron sharpens iron, so does one wo/man sharpen another...</I> Prov 27:17