Dream,

1) funk lasted a couple of months
2) Feelings are that she loves me but sometimes is afraid and it caused her to question if she is capable of hurting me some more
3) No way to be sure, but there is no big block of time unaccounted for that I know of ( She works graveyard, I work days, so unless she's not sleeping or OM is "visiting" , that would be the only way. Once other thing she is not on BC pills anymore and no evidence of any other BC being used.

One other thing, she has kept a note in her day planner for the past 7 months, that she moves from month to month, on a post it that say " stop feeling sorry for yourself you lazy lying hypocrite and do something ". I have no idea what that means and I snooped it out so I don't want to LB by confronting it. She has been comfortable in the friendship area and tells me most of the time where she has been if she goes out. Any Thoughts ?