Estes & FSA,
I just got back after being on the road yesterday for 11 hours and then jumped back in the car today at noon, 10 1/2 hrs today.
STBX was shocked to say the least when YD and I should up at the end of his softball game.
I was lead to believe that OW had only been there a week and half. But when we walked into the apartment and there was more furnisher then he took from our house and pictures of her all over the place, I knew he had lied. It set me off though and I couldn't get my emotions under control. So went outside and sat, I couldn't get into billeting on base and was hoping to stay with him and girls, but couldn't handle it so had to pay for a hotel, he drove his car to show me where it was and I said or hinted enough times that I really didn't have money to do this thinking he would offer to cover it, NOT!!
Went over this morning to see the girls before I came back (Had wanted to stay, but couldn't deal with her stuff all over) and he wasn't there, the SOB had went to take her to work, that will not be happening or should not be happening again!! She is there and that is her choice, catch a bus,whatever.
Did talk with STBX today, told him that I did not set out to hurt him or his career, was mad and angry when I said that I would take his career, said I said it to scare him some too. I said and I did tell you what the consequences of your actions would be, and you chose to assume that I would be nice and not push it. Well it is out of my hands now!! So I am sorry that this is what your career has come to, we had worked so hard for you to get where you are. You have done some awesome things with your career, there are many that respect you, I have heard this respect from a 4 star general that would call him personally to play racquetball all the way down to an airman that is fresh out of tech school and is only 18 years old. The man that I married is awesome, I am sorry that he is no longer here.
The one last thing that I will share with you all before bed,
I told him that he had to apologise to my parents, I said they had trusted you 21 years ago with their only daughter (I was 18) that they did not want us to marry. They loved you like a son. And less then 3 weeks before D day you told my mother that you would take care of me the rest of my life and you hurt me more then anyone could hurt another person they love and now you have hurt their grandchildren. I said you owe them an apology. That they are mad and as angry as H3!! at you!! At one time he valued there respect!!! He mentioned one time in my session with an IC that what my parents thought would bother him.
As I was getting in the car I asked if he had gotten the papers back to the his Lawyer and he said that he was vacation, I said to bad, I had asked my Lawyer to call me so I could sign, told him that my lawyer said it would be September before things got settled. Said S@#$t! I can't afford another months rent! Too bad!!
My girls come home on the 12th, I miss them and pray that he smartens up and doesn't allow them to be hurt anymore then they already have been.
It was a productive day in many ways, I listened to Dr Phil on the way home and have little more insight to myself and what I need to do, also listened to Parenting with Love and Logic and now have some thoughts to help son!! This is good!! I also got a really cool Snoopy watch from my kids for my 40th birthday. My brother said that he was sorry that I had to spend my birthday in this way and I said that I choose this. Not to feel bad for me!!
Good night!! Thanks for all the support!! I will continue needing all of you the next few weeks, I am scheduled for an elective surgery procedure on the 22nd. Just one more th ing, I know!!!
Take care,
Dawn <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
<small>[ August 03, 2002, 01:29 AM: Message edited by: daybreak ]</small>
