No for the most case H does not spend more time with OW .

WEND. & FRI seem to be the thing , weekends are here sat. and sun .

Only some rare times she pulls that , and the little stop by .

But we do see one another far more then they see one another .

We do go out on thurs. when his mom is in she baby sits now . Ever since he came home even if we go for coffee for an hour .

HIS spare time yes is split 3 ways most I still see is me .

Tahts a good thing , I NOTICE she gets more crazy around any important event .

Holidays, birthdays , ect.

That seems to be when H says that she thinks she can catch him sort of speaking .

PUTS holes in his lies to her , like EASTER is coming and she knows I would have the kids , so now she gets crazy wanting to know where he is going to spend the holidays .see this is the game she knows in her heart but wants him to say it cause she is to scared of finding the proff herself .

I know where she is in her head , SHE knows it and wants him to admit it and she knows she can catch him but the reality will crush her that he did this to her . Just like a BS who hunts the trueth down .

Any way the is her problem , and the choice she made I am concerned only with my own .

and BIG pat on back for your daughter , thats great and pat for you showing her the strength cause I am sure she got that determined will from you .

Hey 3! Sounds like you're on the right track! Treat whatever he says concerning A with indifference and take care of YOU!

I talk to my Dad too (he died 9 months ago), along with praying. I think it gives me comfort like nothing else.

Keep doing what you're doing!

Martha--MANY congrats to your D! She sounds like a smart girl (smarter than I was at that age--LOL) and I wish her and you the best!

3,

Thanks for more info. Have a clearer picture of what is going on in your life.

Glad to hear that WS is spending majority of free time with you. This information gives me a better attitude toward your H. This is good that he spends most of his free time with you.

Just keep going the way you are, it sounds like you are doing better than you were. I guess that when people vent you don't always get a clear picture of what is happening. I know it hurts you when your WS disappears on those days and you vent about it here. Thank you for clarifying(sp?) your situation.

3 and luvbird,
Thank you for complimenting my daughter and me. It means so much to be validated by others sometimes. Have such a low self-esteem and have had a lot on my plate. Have not been the mom to be able to do sports, concerts, or be there for dance lessons and things for my kids. Have always had to work and keep it all together. Basics like roof over ones head, heat, water, light, and food on the table. But I have always been there. Was so very consumed with grief I had with marriage that I was not always available emotionally for my kids. I am better now.

Had YEARS where I was not able to remove myself emotionally and always reacted to situations in my life. And always looked to myself first, blaming myself for stuff that I didn't own. That is why I praise God that He told me first to be silent, and a wonderful couselor who changed my life by showing me how to STEP BACK from it all, observe and decide the healthiest way to deal with things. what was healthiest for family,marriage, and for me too, which I never thought of. I didn't know how to take care of me because I was taking care of everyone else. Let me steal a line from you 3, can we say CARETAKER?

Anyway, enough about me, I am rambling, I know. Thanks for the compliments. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

3, I don't know how you do it. I blew everything out of the water only 2 weeks after my FWS was staying with me only. He was still 'moved out, but was home most of the time. Let's put it this way, I realized by voice mail infoo, that he was taking ow out to a show where several people I associated with were there. So I called and said, you know he is here with me and we are having SF and that has never stopped, the WHOLE time he was seeing (and you KNOW what I mean) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> you.

Anyway, I won't go into detail at this point. Yeah, FWS was p!ssed for a couple of days. But he was back with me. I pulled out all stops sexually with FWS. Timing IS everything. 3, put the kids aside momentarily for a minute for this. My suggestion, and people flame me for this one is that you know him the best. You know when he wants SF, what he wants, WAY better than anyone else. Make sure he's happy that way. And make sure it is so good there won't be a chance of it happening with ANYONE else. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

You want to grow old with him? The children will grow up and leave home and where will you be. You have to put H first. I don't know how old your kids are. Do you have 2? Are they old enough to not set the house on fire for 30 minutes? Your H comes first. What are his EN's? Do you know? I'm sure you do. Get my drift?

Sorry. Long post. You are awesome. You are doing SOOO much better. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> Keep it up. And start praying girl.

Love in Christ,
Miss M
Martha

<small>[ April 10, 2003, 11:45 PM: Message edited by: Miss M ]</small>

HEY girls always good to read from you first thing , well not first ( but first time I have some me time )

2 kids thats right S8&D5, Well I do put then aside when he wants SF . THEY are downstairs eating or playing in morning on weekends .

SF is a problem sort to speak and I have talked to him in length about it . try to make it quik .

We had a problem in this area some what , He always wanted it ALWAYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Since we started dating it was about that I did not WANT IT ALL THE TIME ! Example we would fight and I mean really fight , we would not talk and all of a sudden there he was with out resolving fight head straight to sex!!!! I use to get so angry , tell him how can you do that when we just finished screaming at one another . Use to say cause I love you and one has nothing to do with another <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" /> This was for many years of our relationship . I still did have SEX with him alot well more then I thouhgt nessacery 5x a week some alittle less with work schedukes and then kids .

ANY WAY , When I became VERY large (fat) I was shot down so much but it was not just him I relized later that was my issue , i did not feel attractive and blamed him , thinking he does not like the way I look , so why are you having sex with me just to HAVE IT . So things became worse , then everything started DAD died, MOVED in with my mom before buying a home and got pregnat again ( not expected) were buting a first home and well get it we diconnected in away , HE avoiced BIG time .

I saw problems and wanted them addressed but he ran , was depressed job, LIVING conditions , no money ect.

OK had Daughter , he gets new job, and found a house , he tells me after that , that he is sorry that he has been so horriable and HE could not have all these things in his life with out me I am the reason he , is who he is . GOT that speach the day we brought Daughter home from HOSPITAL and he just finished finding out that he landed what was to be a great job in managment that I pushed him to go for and told him when he was scared that he could do this .

2 mons. later in new home , well right after that it all started down hill again .

Some where at this point he met OW through hiring her brothers at job and they all became freinds I did not know about any of this .

And thats what happened , the SF STOPED COLD , DEAD NEVER NODA .
I knew something was wrong and from that point on attacted every day to find out . So much happened then MOM died away on a trip to florida and the rest got worse thats when I belive the A really got started .

I was greiving and he couldn't take it .

I lost touch with everything and didn't care had to much to take care of and could not function alot of guilt with moms death . Won't go into it .This is already a book .LOL

I more or less found out he was sneaking around but he wouldn't admit it at all , I tild him after about 6 mons. of going out of my mind , either GET up the stairs and get in BED with me and put this M on track or get the HELL out of my life !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you see he kicked me out of bed room and was not even sleeping next to me . So when I told him that sleeping in my room with him was starting that night HE packed and MOVED OUT !!!

I knew more then ever he was sleeping with someone , then I snapped out of it and hunted him down every day till I could catch him . I asked all the time who is she , he always said, there is no one I just HATE YOU > UNTIL THE D-DAY I caought him with her and then $hit hit the fan .

Confronted OW several tinmes and then she wwanted it resolved , h still was saying she was someone elses girlfreind and they were freinds .

So I told her what he would say when he would pick up kids , She made him call me , I told him I want the trueth AND I will leave you alone I just want the trueth I deserve it after all the years I am with you . SHE was on the phone I was not suppose to know that . H said, I lOVE $LUT (name) and want to M her .

I said, ok see ya thanks for everything and have a great life you deserve it and I hope your happy please be a good DAD and we can be freinds for the kids sack good-bye .

I started life and that was that . THE rest well is history already posted most , about 4 mons . later he was begging back and you know the rest .

SF was an issue I addressed right away , told him that while he was gone I got to learn alot about myself and I was negletful to his needs .It was a problem that was mine and I do want him very much and I was not going to except anything less then a very healthy sex life and the A did not hinder me in that dept. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> So , we started communicating he told me he WOKE up while he was gone knowing that he ran from all issuses and never dealt with anything thouhgt they would go away , and I was right we needed to resolve them in order to have a healthy m .

I was happy as pig in $hit , he was sincer and I knew it .
SF was alittle , weird at first cause I wanted it all the time and HE wanted to take it slow , HE said he felt guilty for what he did and couldn't understand why I was not punishing him in that manner also he felt that I would be thinking that he was thinking of OW , and he was not but thought I would and it made him feel more guilty .

SF was getting better , I do everything sort a speaking , don't have a problem pulling out all the stops for him what ever he wants , I am very open when it comes to sex talking about it doesn't phase me . He on the other hand does not like to talk about it , likes and dislikes he finds talking about it to be weird .

We where doing it kids awake , sleeping , shower any where .

Then 5 mons. home OW was becoming pain in A$$ more and MORE , HE was seeing her more and then the SF was slowing down I presewed and was getting turned down , he said, things like I feel guilty , I am hurting you seeing her then I am going to sleep with you and I want to but I feel like its so wrong and it will hurt you more ( not having sex with OW ) so he says . I mean H hsa SF with me but it slowed down .

H always says IT makes me hate myself , more that I am hurting you by seeing her , so I feel like if things are great between us in every way you are going to be more hurt .

He keeps saying I can't give 100% to you while this is going on , when OW is gone life can be real . I will make all this up to you .
Don't know if I am explaining this rihgt .

This is to long I will post again .

3,

Okay,just read your dates on your sig line. Got that mixed up, thought WS had only been home for 2 months, now I realize its been going on 14 <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> months.

Okay, I'll use your line again. Can we say CAKEMAN?

Can we say fogspeak. That is what is coming out of WS mouth when he says he is too guilty to have SF with you. He has a very high sex drive, and you two are both pretty young. I think you know the real answer.

You already have a lot of self esteem issues about your physical appearance, you have lost so much weight and I'm sure you look great, so it must be really hard on you to be turned down with those kind of excuses.

You are doing better than you think. How have you hung in there for 14 months? You are something else. You are doing great.

I wish Orchid would pipe up and give you a lesson on fogspeak. I'm not very good at it.

Plan A, A, A. Till June. Step back, observe. I believe you are healthier than I thought you were.

As I have said, I am not you. I would have issued some ultimatums a long time ago. I don't know how you do it.

Really feeling for you and praying your WS will turn around. I hear a lot of guilt talk from your WS, but no action. That bothers me. I'm sure it bothers you too.

Your strength is amazing. I was glad to see you post that ow problems don't concern you. That is right. She has NOTHING to do with you.

And what your WS spouse is doing the last 14 months has nothing to do with you either. It is all about him. You are a good gal, don't forget that.

I worry about your self esteem. I know how devastated I was, and my FWS EA/PA only went on for 8 or 9 months, and I was only aware of it for 4 of those months.

It took me a long time before I could hold my head up and look anyone in the face because it was a very public A after D-Day. ow was determined to have my life, with people I had associated with for 14 years. That's another story. Let's just say I know who my friends are now.

Step back and observe 3. Do what is healthiest for you. Realize that at this point this is not about you. You have changed a lot, and are continuing to work on you and improve. That is what plan A is about.

I support you. If you can wait till June, do it.
And vent here. I am sorry if I got the wrong impression from you when you vented here. But hey, a vent is a vent.

Praying for this all to end so you can get on with life, hopefully with WS, who at some point will be FWS.

Love in Christ,
Miss M

Enough of that , I wanted to touch on somethign else that you mentioned .

I do vent here alot and say all the bad things that are going on , I realized that yesterday after posting and you asked about his free time .

I neglect to put in the good , I just assume sometimes that people are going to say he is full of $hit he is lying to you or doing or saying those things to keep his A going .

Understand ?

We do attend parties toghther all family functions and I am into family and have a pretty big one 4 sisters all M and 9 nieces and nephews and he has a great family aunts and uncles and cousions all very close . So with that it keeps you busy with parties all the time and 2 very close child hood freinds with another 6 kids that are as close to me as blood relitives even closer .

We go to sporting events (both are into sports)
I learned how to play golf , so we can go toghther and became a bigger football fan then he is LOL .

We do all or most of his work memos at home together ( I am better at them then he is ) I know every thing about his job ok most .

I mean the ins and out of his discriptions PROPERTY MANAGER , I help him keep up on some of these areas of business . Laws , codes and so on .

He explains it to me and I make sure to keep up on it .

He does help more with kids then he use to . We are not playing good cop bad cop any more .
He takes active roll in knowing about sons edacation homework , projects so on and daughter he is learning that well she is the clown (HIS MINNIE ME) and he really is seeing that now .

My H is the funniest man you can ever meet put him in a room with 100 peolpe there might be one that can't get along with him . The other 99 talk about him long after he is gone . VERY lovable guy , down to earth , humor, and well deverse not knowing all but some in each place to hold his own .

If he don't know he looks it up . My FARTHER loved him , the son he never had . And he had 3 other son-in-laws all great guys , but him and DAD well they had something .
Possiably cause my H lost his DAD at age 13 .

And H could never get close to another man , until my DAD .

He is hurting and I know that , i also know it is his choice to hurt .
I have come to his rescue to many time sin his life to confort him and to try to guide him in the rihgt derection . He does things his way , then falls on his face and I am there picking him up telling him now are you going to listen !!!!!

LIKE a kid , not any more . I know evry situation is simalar, and ther are cake eaters , and fence sitters and they are simalar but not the SAME cause everyone knows there own WS personality .

So this is why I am standing here , cause ther is some trueth to this situation .

He is a conflict Avoider, with me and with OW .

He will relize I am not going to clean this mess up for him . That is why I won't call her something I know that she don't don't .
If I call her maybe he will blow up and stay with me or maybe he will D me depending what she does or what they have been doing .

But thats not my issue , mine is to HIM to come to terms with his own mess . And if he looses me in the process well thats his problem again not mine cause I would have moved on .

I know what people say here , but in the mean time I am hurting , yes i am . and am I doing what is healthy for me and my kids . Well for me yes , I can say yes now .

CAUSE healthy for me is NOT to be his vacum cleaner I am not cleaning this mess for him or any anymore . He is a grown man and has to deal with the cards he put before himself .

Today well he will see her , i know that its fri. and its raining .

Am I going to LB HE!! NO . NOT today .
I already know what I am going to say and it has not happened yet.

I steped back from it already (cause i know whats coming) I am going to still state my disappointment and my hurt over it , some thing like this .

well not suprised we knew she would call and want to see you . I am sure you are going . BUT ..I think by now you already know how I feel and how much this hurts me , I am sure with this in mind you will think about that and how your actions need to start matching your words , so with that said, I hope to see you at a more resonable hour this evening , for there is no real reson any one can make you be some where you do not want to be . i love you and will be playing with the kids if you are to join we will be here ..

OK is that to the point , a lb in away but I feel I always have to express the fact that I do not like it , condone it and that his actions will be the very thing I see , so when I move on with out him he can't say he did not see it coming . something like that .

3,

Thanks for all the info. Much clearer picture of your life.

I personally don't think what you will say to him today will be a LB, but as my father would say to me, it's not what you say, it's HOW you say it.

And since you are in plan A till June, it's okay to let him know his decisions about contact with ow hurt you. Just CALM, CALM, CALM.

You are right, you are not the vacuume cleaner, he has to clean up his own mess, you are working on you, being a good mom, living life.

Did I say you are doing great? YOU ARE AWESOME 3, and you have a lot of good things going, family, etc.

Glad to see some positive things about your life being posted by you.

Let us (me) know how it all goes this evening!

Praying, as always for you!

Love in Christ,
Miss M

i was posting while you where posting , belive it or not guys I know this JERK, cake eating , fencing , fog talkin A$$ HOLE LOVES ME I KNOW HE DOES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The guilt thing with Sf , yes i belive most of it .

Actions well he was always like this , thats something I knew about him better then anyone , he don't like people getting close he don't like action feels it makes him less the man if someone sees him DO for ME a whipped man . NOW I tell him the whip she is cracking on you , well your bleeding BOY>LOL

He gets so mad . LOL

Any who i don't ant to defend him he is wrong and needs to grow up if he wants this WOMEN any more , with or without OW in picture the BOY needs to work his A$$ off or he will start loving me from afar very FAR . THATS THAT in a nut shell !.

I may sound like i am enabler sometimes but i am not i am a women who knows this man in and out , fog or not and I am not a fool .

I do hold head up high even after everyone knew the first time , got to say I never felt less like it was MY fault skipped over that stage all together knew all along in my HEART was not my choice . MAybe thats what helped me get for a longer time .

<small>[ April 11, 2003, 10:27 AM: Message edited by: 3isacrowd ]</small>

Well got that call early today , and may I take a bow , clap clap , chear chear , hrey for me .

HANDLED it well very well delivery , calm clear and <img border="0" title="" alt="[Cool]" src="images/icons/cool.gif" />

GOT the BOY thinking , the past couple of days now it started to rattle the cage , see I hit the nerve I been wanting to get to just wasn't plan a or anything good enough .

I heard the confusion in the voice , he can't handle calm from me it messes him all up .

He commented , no yelling thats it , I said, yep.

THATS it let your actions speak for you ,YOU know where this M is headed if I don't see what your talkin any more .

YOUR life do with it what you may , mine is decided by me not but you.

KNOW makes any one do what they don't want to do , or BE where they don't want to be . Those are the facts of life , and WE BOTH know that .

So HAVE a good night and I will see ya later .
H said, call you so we can talk more , i said , ok but no talk about OW , you make your own decisions , your family will be here , and if YOU want to hang with us we would love that.

Alright 3!!

You are doing GREAT!!

HI, just needed to share somthing I thouhgt was very funny . I told you alittle bit about my daughter being a clown . (5 yrs. old )

Anyway she has these really annoying things she says and does . (she has some issues LOL)

Like when you put her socks on she makes you take then off some times , and do it again , If you ask her why she says It has PUMPILLY things in it <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" /> ME and H asked her one day what the heck PUMPILLY things are she says these LITTLE BALLS in her socks we crack up she a clown .

FOLLOW ME HERE PEOPLE ,

Today last call for the day from H , seeing OW for sure (WOW NEWS TO ME) H says BLA BLA BLA same $hit and then I am saying nothing just listening ,just then he says I hope she don't MAKE ME STAY THERE LATE ,,,,, Well I couldn't help it I turned around and said, " why don't you grow some PUMPILLY'S and walk out "( very calm matter a fact like )
THEN said, got to go get son from sport program , well I hung up and was LOL I cracked me up .

anyway may not get the same laugh as I did but had to tell ya my girl she is a trip .

Well got to go feed the little "MONSTARS"

BE back AAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL night .

I did good today , I feel good today , yesterday was good , today got better , tomorrow will be even better . OK enough patting ME <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Calm on people its friday and if your board , you could read my post forever .

Ok I am only H with OW , and its getting to that time of the night when I feel like flipping out , I should go to sleep , but don't want to but if I don't I probbly will start to get pissed off .

I have been getting better and don't want to go down hill cause I have that habbit .

ok well ,
comments any one ??????????????????????????????

3,

O My gosh, you are so AWESOME.

Sorry haven't gotten back to you before now.Worked 11 AM to 12 PM tonite.

Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, you are doing it!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> !!!

It's working. And whether you feel you are in plan A or not, you are. I want to tell you what a wonderful person you are.

Excuse any typos, I worked over 12 hours today, and YES I had a couple of beers and a wine before I left tonite. Do I get to have fun yet. well, maybe a little bit. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

OK. Here it goes. Standing up. Clapping. STANDING OVATION!!!!CLAPCLAPCLAPCLAPCLAPCLAPCLAP!!!!!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

You are in plan A, taking care of 3 and kids and life and learning. Keep it up. It is working. I have been praying for you. God is so awesome 3, He DOES answer prayer, he knows your heart, and sometimes he uses these circumstances to get you closer to where you need to be. To Him, for guidance. Have faith. It works in spite of all of it.

GOGOGOGOGO3!!!!!!!!

Love to you, and love in Christ,
Martha

<small>[ April 12, 2003, 03:10 AM: Message edited by: Miss M ]</small>

You go girl! Keep it up, and I don't think it will be long until he grows some "pumpillies" (or pumpilli? what would the correct plural for that be? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> ) and straightens up his act.

Btw, my 9 y/o still does the thing with the socks. Puts `em on, then takes `em right back off because they "don't feel right", fiddles with them, and puts `em on again.

Aren't kids grrrrrreat ! But come on they are little peolpe with sime issues LOL

MISS M - go directly to BED <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> I rembber the days of 10 and 12 hours I loved though , things you see now that you didn't then . Work being a good thing LOL , well I have been workin on that to but have not posted it yet , I'll get into it on MONDAY .( LUVBIRD I think you may be interested I need to see a couple of more facts about it cause you need u and a computer and 5to 7 hrs a day we'll talk more )

Thanks for the pom pom cheers !!!!!!!!!

Ok back to bussiness , H came home 5;30 AM <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> Well I am a little crancky at that time, and kids were not that we behaved all night .

He came in crying about his back still , he hurt it 2 weeks ago playing football .(poor baby <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> ) well thats what he did for about 30 min cry about back , so yes alittle sarcasim was nesscery .
I asked him if it hurt while doing gymnastics with his brooklyn trap .

He said, you know I don't do anything with her,
so my reply , yes like I see by your actions were YOU wanted to be tonight .

Well I woke up and had to go to store first thing this morning forgot Rice Milk for kids , (they are allergic to everything so specal foods all the time ) While I was out I bought eggs for H and some panckes and french toast .

He is still in bed and I went up a min ago , He asked why all dressed already , I said,I was shopping and there breakfast down stairs for when you get up.HE thanked me and I kissed him morning .

Well here It comes , i think the day will suck but I will make it through , he said, she will call today cause they are fighting , WHAT EVER !!!

3,

Yes, I did go directly to bed, did not pass go, but did collect $130.00 after tipping out, used to make more, but hey economy is really bad in this part of country, and was thankful for what I recieved. Can you guess what I do for a living?

Boy your H just doesn't get it, does he? Really pushing 3s buttons isn't he? Kind of pushing Miss M's buttons too, as I am part of 3's pep squad these days. 5:30 AM? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> okay I'm done.

Don't know how you do it. Be your sweet self, and as luvbird said, doesn't your WS know that his cell has an off button? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

CALM, CALM, CALM, 3, don't talk about ow, make him own his problems. Try to stay away from sarcasm. Sounds like your WS is thriving on the drama.

I am sure you would give your right arm for some peace and a little security right now.

You are doing it. WS out all nite, and you go and do something nice for him. That's what I did when I was really angry. Sometimes its hard, heck it is always hard.

From my print outs from therapist. "When very angry at someone, gently avoid person you are angry at and then try to do something nice for that person when calm enough.

CALM CALM CALM 3. Tell you what, I'll be mad for you. LOLLOLLOL <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Got to go to work again. Weekends are long hours for me, will post Sunday, maybe tonite if I get home and am not exhausted from being 47, going thru full tilt menopause and running circles around girls that I am 20 years older than. Dr just put me on hormones, energy levels are up, hot flashes down. Whew!

Hang in there 3.One more cheer for 3, with pompoms; GO 3 GO, GO 3 GO, GO 3 GO!!!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Love in Christ,
Miss M

Ok well lets get some prespective on this I only started to aply any plan at all the past couple of days , I think It will take some hard work for this boy to get it.

OK $lut is starting to beep him already <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />

I just want to well theres a saying very dirty don't know if any one will get it .

I want to hang her by her shortys ( thats if she don't shave them ) Now he will rush in and out of shower to try to make this call tho this B!TCH .

I watch him run around like a chicken with out a head for this twit !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know if he is getting a rise from all this or if it is flipping him out . I see the pase and the stress so I don't know if he is all that thrill in it for him .

That is always where my confustion is with this thinking some is true .

(do not 2x4 me for beliving some of his talk )

He is a man who loves to relax , does not like being on run, unless he is in charge of the run .

He is not in charge of this one OW is setting the pase . I think he can only kiss a$$ so much longer He is not the type , <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

This B!tch wants to see my kids wants to hang with them , H is saying she says what you can't be separated and hang with your kids and a friend .

She is not biting any more , all the lies so she trys to back him into corners .

I just told him don't go there , my kids are not used in this at all for you or anyone else ,he said, I know that

H has said, he knows before and has tried it not this time I will pack his bags so fast ,

This is where my line is drawn in cement now !!!!

I will go all out my kids are confused and angry about this , enough that I am always working on it with them .
There ok but I have to keep them away from this situation as much as possiable .

I will do that , now I am strong enough to make a stand for my kids .

want my kids around another women then get a DIVORCE and be gone . I will LB till there is nothing left standing .I am going to explode if he calls and starts about kids .

I will react with all of me and GOD can only save him if all my ANGER comes a rush IN .

SO pray for him and OW right now cause if the day goes that way , start workin those tables and luvbird start breaking the piggy bank I may need the bail ...OH WESTERN UNION LOL

GOT to go and prepare for the bell , this may go 12 rounds !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Or he will say he is seeing her cause now she wants to fight about it again !!!!!!

GO GO GO AWAY but thats his choice , mine is to protect my KIDS !!!!! this man has been on that planet to long its time to NUC it .

THE MOTHER BOMB MAY DROP !!!!!!!!!!!!! There goes the beep again

HELLO , all who pays attention , Well made it through the day I say that at 8pm cause H is with OW .

This is a weird turn of events but , then again going back and checking on calender there is a weekend stuck in there before when every holiday .

Wow I should work for FBI LOL .

Well first the war , not over there over here silly LOL ( stay with me)

He called her back , she wants to take the KIDS with him to movies .......... NOT >>>>>>>>>>>>>

OK he did not ask (thank GOD ) , but it was a 3 calls later the B!TCH was still attacting the issues (say it WACKO)

He was wound up and I LB ALOT , Hey cut me a break it was about my KIDS .

BUT , I turned those LB down quick enough and did something he use to do when we fought , YES you know straight up the stairs and well SF and it was good . I got to admit I was smooth , while fighting I started to listen and steped way back got some control got <img border="0" title="" alt="[Cool]" src="images/icons/cool.gif" /> and well turned the tables back to us off of them .

Then , evrything was kisses from there ,
went to store ordered shower doors , went to PARK with kids played some baseball came home more kissing and ate DINNER .

OH before I explain about him being there, ONE phone call ," he was screaming saying my kids don't wnat to be around you and do not have to cause we are not together and haven't been for over a year and thats what your not getting . "

That flipped her out and she proseeded to call the rest of the time .

Last call comes , 7pm and this is it she is screaming and threating him and well the no BALLS goes running .

NO LB here , he calls her after pretending to drop off kids and starts to tell me that he is going there . SO what do ya do , well me washed dishes LOL He tried the kissing and the I love you and the well every thing from I sware this will be over any day now to the we can weather any storm line ( LUTHER VAN. can't spell)

Got to admit the boy could be smooth for some one if ya don't know him . she was calling that phone and beeping he was trying so hard for me to validate this for him and say ok kiss kiss and go your late .
NO , i just said, this is YOUR choice and do what you feel is good for your life . ( he is starting to hate that word "choice")
Well then i started to get kids pj's on and snacks to sit down and watch a movie we got boot leg " CODY BANKS"

he followed me around and I just kept saying calmly , everyone has choices mine is to be a mom right now and be with my kids , whats yours?
He said, I have to go please tell me you love me please this boy started to cry . (Is he kidding me ) .

I got to the bathroom stood face to face as if I would kiss him and just said, CHOICES everyone has them like [censored] I then shut the door and locked it .

He stood there and please please please until he left .. THEN he tried calling me , ok enough jesus what is wrong with him I mean your going right why the drama give me a break .

So how was that , LB alittle this morning ( with the only good resaon my kids) PLAN A all day ,(went well ) then alittle 180 stepping back with not validating what he was doing .

Do I got this right , cause I feel like books and words were running through my head the hole time I couldn't grab then fast enough .

I think in the next week or 2 this boy is going to get way to FAT from the cake diet and explode !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I knew if anyone here got a cake eater with fog out of it any other way then PLAN B .

Well got to jet !!!!!!!, be back if anyone cares to through 2 cents my way I will be a richer women for it .LOL

I just realized something , I am sitting here he is with OW . and I don't care ?

I mean I am not paralized not that type of not caring .
I am not upset and am not caring what they are doing . I feel nothing either way .

questioning this cause I just got scared .Am I excepting my husband to be with OW in the way an open marriage gets started or do I feel like this because I am getting to that point of I am depleted?

This is not the first time this is been happening , I mean do I have anything left?

Is PLAN A now that I am finally getting started easier for the week cause I don't care either way any more .?

Never mind its late and maybe I am just reading here to much and tomorrow will be different .