Cheryl,<P>I feel very bad for you. Sh*t. D*mn. But remember that you are not a bad person. You are who you are. We can see from your posts that you are kind and good. The craziness of the situation you've been in has been hellish on you, that's all.<P>Your husband is saying those terrible things to you from a combination of guilt/justification and also the love-busters you guys have been flinging at each other the last few weeks.<P>Now, I know you don't want to hear this right now because you are so depressed, but I'll say it anyway (and you can cuss me out if you want... ). Even if you allow the divorce to go through, and you give up, you should not love-bust anymore. Don't give in to his button pushing. Do it for your daughter. You and he will need to have a good relationship for her! The no-love-busting rule is just a good one in general, whether you plan on working on the marriage or not. And who knows, it may pay off later on when his relationship to whats-her-name eventually falls apart.<P>hope you feel better tomorrow!!<BR>--andy

Oh ceecee - I am soooo sorry this has happened to you. It is not about you, it is about him. You've always been so strong and there for the rest of us. I hope you take comfort in the support I and all the others are sending to you. You may feel alone, but you are not alone. <BR>