Believer, It is nice to know that you had a good time. How are your little friends parents? I remember that you said that the dad is having an A too.

Please forget about your WH now, next time he wants to talk, then talk nicely. I hope that you don't hang in the limbo for too long.

I am already feeling much better. WH acted so nice around my relatives here. My mom willbe going back with him today. It will be interested to see what they talk on the trip.

I may call you sometime. WH's friend is setting up the company for making phone cards. It is very inexpensive to call. It is about 2 cents canadian per minute. I gave him $20. He said I can call unlimited. What a deal.

lostnhurt - I will be here all week. I am working on more home improvements - I have a screened sun room that I'm going to get painted. Have been spending this morning moving out plants, etc.

My little friends father seems to have ended the A. His wife never did the MB program, just told him to get out if he wanted someone else.

I have not heard from WH. He said it was very important to talk to me and he would call this weekend. He lives 2 miles away, and could have come over, but OW will not let him. Ha. Ha. Now he is HER problem.

Actually I think he is going to offer some kind of settlement to get rid of me. I will wait and see.

WH said he went to pump gas, guess how long he's been gone? One hour! My mom was worryied, I told her to keep cool.

Wh left for home or OW. My mom is with him!

My mom and I just had a short conversation. SHe said that is everything ok between you two now? I told that there is no such thing. A seperation will be very soon, I just need to be away from him now to get myself ready. I had to comfort her. I just couldn't get a kind of support like sis gave me. I need to read the Bible and pray more.

lostnhurt -Keep hanging in there. You will now get some rest. I am STILL waiting to hear what was so important from WH. I guess it was just not that important.

Believer, you are right about your WH. If it is important he would have called you. I guess it is not important to him nor important to you. Please enjoy your time.

I feel the peace here, I don't miss WH at all. He took my mom to parents apartment and have dinner with them. What a joke.

Now 4 kids are playing and didn't want to go to bed. I am having a pedicure for myself. I ate good food here. I am sure that I will gain back the weight I lost in one month. There are too many good things to do here.

Lostnhurt -

Things are looking up for me. My boys got a friend to take the other bedroom in their home, and he will be paying rent. My roommate is great, and pays good rent. So financially I will be doing fine.

We also found a home for Leo. It is close to where his old owner lives, and is on a farm, so he can run around. We have had him for over a year. His owner cheated on his wife, and left her and two kids. The wife moved into an apartment where they don't allow pets. Now they have reconciled. So Leo will be moving tomorrow right near them, so the kids will be able to see him everyday. I will miss him, but it is a big relief that he has a nice home.

I am so glad that you are FINALLY going to get some rest. I have been very worried about you. This will be good for your children too.

well hello lost, sorry i have not gotten back to you sooner but i didn't get into town until last night. i guess i'm not sure what even to say about the recent events in your life. i'm glad that you are in toronto and are feeling better and i'm sure the kids will thoroughly enjoy the time as well. when will you be coming back?

as far the letter your H sent well........it's pretty much been said here over and over but that letter was about him, it was about him making himself feel better and trying to manipulate the situation. you yourself have said that you thought that he was waiting for something but wasn't sure what. now it seems a little apparent, that maybe he was waiting for you to be done w/school and then he would give you this letter. i probably would have given you the same advice, write a letter back. did you actually send it? it sounded good what you had posted.

remember my H sent me a letter not to long ago and said he was going to be filing for D soon , etc. etc. and that was SH's suggestion too, to write a short letter of my own back to my H. i didn't really address what he said in his letter to me but that i had received it and this is how i feel.........anyway.

it's probably time for you to start another thread, not sure what the title should be. i'm going to start a new thread as well and update on my situation. not a lot to report but i want to post it just the same. on the way back from florida i heard a song ont he radio that was called "i'm praying you through." it was basically saying that anytime we are not praying for ourselves than other people are praying for us. start thinking about what your purpose is all this and how what is happening can be used for God's glory. maybe it is that you will be able to help others, which you are doing, including helping me in so many ways. if you could step back and look at yourself, do you like who you see?i'm not asking about whether or not your kids, WH, parents, etc. like you but whether you like who you've become. you are capbable of more than you ever dreamed and you have come a long way.

i'm sorry that i was not able to be here for you over the weekend during this time in your life but i'm glad others were. i will continue to pray for you as you do for me and i have a couple of questions to ask that i will email to you. take care of yourself, start and end each day w/prayer and God will keep safe his children. hugs and God Bless, RR

LNH,

I haven't posted much to you lately. Been sort of wrapped up in my own little world.

I just wanted to say that from your last post on here, you are already starting to sound more relaxed. I definitely believe going to Toronto was the right thing for you to do!

LL

thinking of you, prayers to you, RR

Thank you firends. Today is my anniverary. Of course, WH would not remember. I left a card in his cloth draw. He did not call. He called yesterday, all he wanted was to talk to D. I don't care anymore. I am thinking to send him the letter I wrote today by e-mail. Is that good idea?

I would wait to send it. And when you do, send it my regular mail, so that he will keep it to reread. I would give him some time alone, and see how he likes it.

I feel ok here, numb. My feeling is like in deep anethesia in big surgery. Actually lot of pain going on, but covered with something els. When I woke up, I still have to go through all the pain and recover myself.

D called Wh last night. He was not home. Now he is more free. He can do whatever he wants. I feel very lost.

lostnhurt - Happy Anniversary! At least do something for yourself. Remember my anniversary? Wh left flowers and a card for me, and then spent the day and evening with OW.

Did you read hopeful persons post about getting a divorce and then remarrying her husband?

I am trying to get my sun room done today, everything is out of it, now it has to be painted, recarpeted, and redecorated. I'm having fun.

just wanted to pop in and say that i hope today starts off better for you. i really have to start limiting myself to the forums, i'm just not getting any work done and i just keep making excuses. so if i don't say much don't worry but i'm glad you are where you are and i hope your kids are not giving you any grief. prayers to you.

Lostnhurt,
You have removed yourself as the excuse for his having an A. That's all you can do.
Cherished

WH called this morning, I said Happy anniverary to him, he said thank you, nothing else. Then he asked to talk to the kids. He even didn't want to talk to me.

But I am ok here. We went shopping last couple days. Then I will take D to see the musical Hairspray. For the coming weekend, we already planned to go pick cherry and visit the Royal Botanical Garden. Next weekend, we are going to visit the Provical Park and camping. Sis will join us too. I am looking forward to all these good things and forget about WH.

I think you are doing the right thing. Put WH on the back burner and forget about him for a while. Right now he may not miss you, but I think he will.

Still working on painting. My house is a mess, with stuff all over. I hate it, because I'm a compulsively neat person. I know, if I stayed off the computer, but I will get in done.

Believer, don't you have to go to work? How long can you take off? When will you go to Europe?

I am here very peacefully, taking care of the kids(4) and cooking, reading, watching a lot of Chinese movies. It is very relaxing. There are two huge Chinese Malls in walking distance and many other shops and restraunts around. I buy the food everyday before cooking, I feel like in China. The only thing is that I have to use the phone to go to internet, not like at home, I can call and use internet at the same time. Am't I spoiled?