Thanks for your prayers and hopeful wishes <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />
My W and I talked briefly before dinner. I told her that I wanted a cease fire, things have been very tense between us. I also told her that I was giving our M issues to GOD, that I have tried too much on my own and that I was going to focus on bettering myself and let GOD work in my life and our families life. I told her I would pray for a happy resolution for our challenges, but that I would no longer question her comings, goings or do any type of snooping whatsoever. I explained how I've made it clear that regardless to the past that I still love her and if she ever feels like talking I would be there for her.
She went to the store and I continued cooking a great meal. My specially seasoned baked chicken, with stir fryed cabbage, string beans and for appetizer a few collosal shrimp topped with melted parmesan & tomato sauce, and some artichoke hearts in parmesan as well (She loves artichoke hearts!) She was very quiet during dinner for the most part, but the kids and I had terrific conversation. Eventually she added into the conversations and all in all I would call it a success.
Grace was the highlight for me, because we all join hands during grace and I was able to hold her hand for a few moments as I led us in prayer. I didn't LB, I said my typical prayer about family, loved ones and being thankful. I'm hoping eventually something I do will seep through the fog and even if it doesn't, I can live with that. I know Plan A is about saving your marriage, but since she is so withdrawn and will not commit to our marriage its hard to identify her EN's. She filled out the questionnnaire weeks ago, but she admits she did it only to avoid conflict, see as she didn't elaborate or go into detail on any of her EN choices all I can do is be the best me I can be and hope it works.
I try to maintain an upbeat attitude and ignore her indifference, but it's not easy. There's a side of me that wants to throw her out on her A$$, but I'd probably just go looking for her afterwards, Why I don't know...she's sucked as a W for over a year, <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> She should be the one in Plan A, dammit she betrayed me and she's here...how does this make sense???
Opps EDIT I know it DOESNT MAKE SENSE lol!
<small>[ July 25, 2004, 07:21 PM: Message edited by: FamilyMatters ]</small>
