</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by ncwalker:
<strong> FamilyMatters,
I pray that your silence is because you have been spending the weekend with the family. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
Just a reminder, in case you have had some stumbles.
The enemy WILL redouble his efforts when you are about to or are making a breakthrough.
He will try and tell you it is not worth the effort - a lie.
He will try and tell you you are finished and make you settle for something less that what God has in mind. Giving you something good to keep you from the best. He is the master of the bait and switch.
He will keep your emotions at a much higher level than normal to psychologically and spiritually wear you down.
You know where to turn for strength and support.
NCWalker </strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">NC and Friends...EVERYONE,
I'm here to tell you that Evil stays busy! I ahve so much to tell you, and YES this will be a long post, but one so many need to read, I hope that you all do.
Once you have taken the steps to rebuild, recover and honor the word, once you've decided you will do whatever is possible, layed down your pride, and I hope you all know what I mean by laying down your pride. Laying down your pride and accepting that or allowing yourself to accept that THIS FIGHT IS BIGGER THAN YOU, it involves more than you and it will take whatever forces you believe in to work WITH you, NOT instead of you, but WITH you, a PARTNERSHIP with your efforts. I have done this finally and the blessings started to show themselves. For me, my partner is GOD. I have become a student once again of his WORD and allowed him to guide me, WORK on me LORD because my marriage problems in my life, can be resolved in me with your help and I BELIEVE.
So...things began to change. Where my W had indifference she became passionate, where my W was divided, she started becoming convinced. We prayed together, when my W came to me a cleansing shower, and YES I wanted my W in the physical, and you H's out there I know you understand this need for SF but when she came to me, INSTEAD, FIRST I took her hand and we knelt and I led us in prayer. Please hear me people, there is nothing as attractive to a woman as a H who is being touched by GOD, she feels secure, she feels that she can be as she was NATURALLY made to be, her role started to become more evident. When I left her alone, she had to find her own way, it was this betrayal of spirit, not just the physical part of my A years ago, but my betrayal of my PLACE in this marriage. FINALLY she is becoming able to say in herself, my H is connecting with GOD and now I can RELAX. WHEW! RELAX! My W had been missing this security in me for so long and it's only through my acts of faith that she is becoming able to feel at ease and beginning letting go of OM and the desires that came along with that. I believe much of her desires stemmed from not having that security in me so she needed to have other things so she would not feel alone, lost, NO one wants to feel alone even if it means being with things that arenot beneficial.
Okay, so me and my W are reconnecting. She is seeing the LORD work through me. She knows my feelings are sincere because it's in my walk, my talk, I'm referencing the bible at different times. I'm washing the dishes and thinking about the WORD and I share my thoughts with her and she knows they are sincere. I'm holding her hand and I'm thinking about our family's path and she knows I'm sincere. So finally things are making sense where there has been chaos, there is calmness...THEN WHAT HAPPENS?
Out of no where, for NO reason, my D up and vanishes...UP and vanishes! There was no arguement. There was no trouble in our home, and my daughter just ups and runs away with a friend of hers, another girl whom my D was told not to associate with. No rhyme, No reason. So now my M is stressed. My W's ability to feel secure is tested. My Faith is being tested. My ability to lead my family is being tested. WHY? My family, faith, marriage are being tested because I've got IT. I've got it and HE knows it. HE being the DEVIL he knows on the right path so what does HE DO? He uses my D to stumble our progress. HE hopes that this will set us back, because he sees that we are progressing in GOD's word, HE is losing another victim! HE is desperate and if he cannot break up my family using me, he will use someone else. HE used me and I eventually realized it and I woke up and started the hard work of getting my family back together. ONCE I started working and finally once I started accepting GOD's word, I began to see what I needed to do TO ME to reconnect with GOD. Then he went to work on my W. She was lost, and by working on her he was able to accomplish his goals of separating my family. ONCE I changed, my change influenced my W and she began to feel more reconnected with me and HE began to lose his grip on her, so NOW he is going after my D. Now this is not GOD testing me, this is nothing/no one other than EVIL itself trying to thwart our progress and stumble us, just as NC said. It won't work. WHY? Because now that I'm connecting with GOD's word I can see what's happening and instead of this being something that divides my M this will pull us together. I will not allow him to stumble my M.
UPSIDE and OPPORTUNITY:
My actions and faith now will show reaffirm in my W that yes, she can RELAX, that YES I'm here connecting with GOD's word and with GOD's blessings and instructions her H can lead us to be whole. This is an opportunity to lead and I'm not afraid of it, I will not allow my W to shut down and to go back spiraling down that road of confusion. My D will be fine, because we will pray for her together, I will lead us, I will find my D and bring her home, I will serve and lead. Don't worry about me, I finally see things in a light that is empowering. I just wanted to share with all of you what is happening in my life right now and to let you know how CRAFTY evil is! How did NC know that I could be facing this? How did he know? I didn't call NC or email him. NC knows that my heart is GENUINE and my recent accepting of GOD's WORD in my life, he knew that my W would react POSITIVELY to all of this and things would start to move in a positive direction, and NC knew by this happening that EVIL would try to SNEAK in and DERAIL our progress. I hope that anyone reading this will understand and see that all of these things are NOT coincedences. FAITH is a powerful thing. NC knows and I am learning that once you are on the path here comes the OBSTACLES, the STUMBLING blocks. My W is finally after 4 YEARS of NOT connecting with me and I've endured, GROWN and finally started to do the last thing that I could do to save my M; Reconnecting with GOD's WORD and then what happens? My W was beginning to feel ONE with me, in the past week or so she has felt more at ONE with me than she has felt in 10 YEARS, then what happens? You do the math and you tell me what you believe. My story is true, this is not some advertisement, I'm not selling you anything. Evil will not win, and I will lead us where we need to go thru faith, serving as the leader I need to be for my family and motivating anyone else who will listen. The Devil is very predictible isn't he? Time to go pray with my W and rassure her that I will find our D, that I will lead this family and that she can RELAX, she has a H who is following the WORD and that is a powerful thing, more powerful than any EVIL, because I'm following GOD's word in actions and faith. I'll update you later. I am not afraid, I am strong because I'm following the GOD's WORD and he knows I cannot do this alone, I have no pride only purpose, responsibility, love and faith. I'm finally getting it and it's so much bigger than I ever imagined. GOD BLESS! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />
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