You are brave.

Why?

Cuz I said so.

So there.

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Hi FL,

Your thoughts and actions seem so similar to what my W and I went through during our first three years of M... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> maybe you all think i am pathetic and maybe you are right. but i don't care what you think of me, i just want to get better. that is more important than anything else.

so fire away, anyone who wants to. i'm not running away!! i am going to continue to grow and i am going to become the person God means me to be.
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I don't think you are pathetic at all...You are very brave I just wanted to let you know that it's NOT hopeless... you can rebuild your M... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Semper Fi,
RIF90

thanks ttsi, ad and rbif.

dipti, Mom, just let me know when and where and i'll be there to sign whatever papers it takes.

i will be at a funeral all day today and then it's the weekend. if i don't post again until monday, no one worry about me, that means i'm doing ok. if i start to digress in any way shape or form, i WILL post here immediately.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by FinallyLearning:
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if i start to digress in any way shape or form, i WILL post here immediately. </strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">((((FL)))) - I'm another one who says that you're brave. You ARE! It must have been incredibly hard to post what you did- and you know what you STOPPED yourself. You didn't go through with it. I call that progress.

IMO, you've hit the bottom FL- and are starting your ascent back to life. It may be difficult, you may backslide- but you WILL get there. You know those safety ropes that climbers have when scaling a mountain? That's us- so USE us and rely on us. We're here to help you to climb this cliff.

FL,
I'm so glad that sharing my story helped a little.

When my H left me he mentioned that he thought that many of our R problems stemmed from what happened in my childhood. He claimed to understand that but didn't feel like he could continue with me because we were beyond help at this point. Of course he tells me this 5 years after the last time I strayed from him and only after his screwed up A with the kid.

He also suggested that I suffered from OCD as does he.

I'm glad you were able to keep yourself from seeing that person you met online. It's a step in the right direction.

Everyone with addictions feel weak when they first try to beat them. It is a struggle, but one that I think you can win in the end.

bump- hope you are doing ok today FL.