Ark, is it that she puts it ALL out for us to see, and doesn't hold any back?

Hi J,

I hope all the myrid facwets that make up your life are getting polished with care.

You sound well.

You have more HOPE in your voice.

SS

I had to smile... I don't put it ALL out there. After all, this is a family bulletin-board. Y'all might fall over if I -really- put it all out there. (But I will say that it's a whole lot of fun!)

I'd love to be Meryl Streep. Wouldn't everyone? (Well, maybe not the guys, but you know what I mean.) And I'd love to write a memoir. There'd be some very interesting chapters. Let's see here. How about this for an outline:

1. Sunlit days and starfilled nights
2. Moving, Death, Alcoholism, and finding solace in the Library
3. Adolescence and Premature Ovarian Failure
4. A Small Liberal Arts College in Minnesota
5. Does This Make Me a Lesbian? I Didn't Get the Secret Handshake...
6. The Mass of the Proton is... Dull and Hard to Find
7. The Gold Dragon with the Buddha-Heart
8. What Ten Billion Dollars Will Buy
9. He KISSED Me!! And Him... And Him, Too.
10. A Castle In Germany -- and the Demons Below
11. Wanting to Kiss Her, and Her, and Her, Too.
12. Closing the Exits, and the One That Didn't Close
13. A House and a Baby
14. Betrayal
15. Sunlit Days and Starfilled Nights
16. Intelligent Life Takes a Stand

That's as much as I can name so far. I bet some of the following chapters are going to be pretty cool, though.

So. Truckin', huh? Ark, you make me laugh. It's one of the few Dead songs that I know!

Sometimes the light’s all shinin’ on me;
Other times I can barely see.
Lately it occurs to me what a long, strange trip it’s been.

Truckin’, I’m a goin’ home. Whoa whoa baby, back where I belong,
Back home, sit down and patch my bones, and get back truckin’ on.
Hey now get back truckin’ home.

actually just J if I really had to pick a grateful dead song for you it'd be

UNCLE JOHNS BAND

Well the first days are the hardest days, don’t you worry any more,
’cause when life looks like easy street, there is danger at your door.
Think this through with me, let me know your mind,
Wo, oh, what I want to know, is are you kind?

It’s a buck dancer’s choice my friend; better take my advice.
You know all the rules by now and the fire from the ice.
Will you come with me? won’t you come with me?
Wo, oh, what I want to know, will you come with me?

Goddamn, well I declare, have you seen the like?
Their wall are built of cannonballs, their motto is "don’t tread on me".
Come hear uncle john’s band playing to the tide,
Come with me, or go alone, he’s come to take his children home.

It’s the same story the crow told me; it’s the only one he knows.
Like the morning sun you come and like the wind you go.
Ain’t no time to hate, barely time to wait,
Wo, oh, what I want to know, where does the time go?

I live in a silver mine and I call it beggar’s tomb;
I got me a violin and I beg you call the tune,
Anybody’s choice, I can hear your voice.
Wo, oh, what I want to know, how does the song go?

Come hear uncle john’s band by the riverside,
Got some things to talk about, here beside the rising tide.

Come hear uncle john’s band playing to the tide,
Come on along, or go alone, he’s come to take his children home.
Wo, oh, what I want to know, how does the song go.


you should look it up and take a listen..it's a lovely song..
hubby just found me an Indigo Girls version that I just adore...

but that would be the REAL song I would pick for you....

ARK

Ripple
by The Grateful Dead



If my words did glow with the gold of sunshine
And my tunes were played on the harp unstrung
Would you hear my voice come through the music
Would you hold it near as it were your own?

It's a hand-me-down, the thoughts are broken
Perhaps they're better left unsung
I don't know, don't really care
Let there be songs to fill the air


(Chorus)


Ripple in still water
When there is no pebble tossed
Nor wind to blow


Reach out your hand if your cup be empty
If your cup is full may it be again
Let it be known there is a fountain
That was not made by the hands of men


There is a road, no simple highway
Between the dawn and the dark of night
And if you go no one may follow
That path is for your steps alone


(Chorus)

You who choose to lead must follow
But if you fall you fall alone
If you should stand then who's to guide you?
If I knew the way I would take you home
....................

another awesome Dead tune is called "Attics of my Life"...

Ark may appreciate that the last time I saw the Dead, Dylan opened for them...so I got to hear "Like a Rolling Stone" and then he came out and jammed on "Uncle John's Band"....LOL

J, you sound good....sending many happy energies and psychic hugs your way...


Dylan (the Deadhead)
**missing her misspent youth....

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Good to hear your world is finally looking bright and sunny again!

Wishing you the best! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Now I'm just smiling. I'm not a Deadhead (Hi Dylan!), and I didn't know Ripple. I love the lyrics, though.

I do know Uncle John's Band. It's one of my cousin's favorite songs. I'd never read the lyrics before. I'll have to hunt out a copy of it to listen to somewhere. Hee.

If I were going to pick a theme song for today (other days, other songs), hmmmm. I think I'd pick this one.

John Mayer
Your Body Is A Wonderland

We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I've left to do
Discover me
Discovering you

One mile to every inch of
Your skin like porcelain
One pair of candy lips and
Your bubblegum tongue

'Cause if you want love
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while

Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland

Something 'bout the way the hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it

You want love?
We'll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be a while

Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland

D*** baby
You frustrate me
I know you're mine all mine all mine
But you look so good it hurts sometimes

Your body is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonderland

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Cool. I think I figured out how to bump old posts. Let's see here...

Hi J,
Is it spring in WDC yet?
I planted some of my tomatoes two weeks ago, and they might even make it.


You are doing well?

SS

Mmmm, tomatoes. Send me some when they're ripe, okay?

Having a very busy time at work these days. I have about 60 hours of work to do before Tuesday evening. A challenge. *sigh*

The world of dating is interesting. I hit a point of being utterly overwhelmed last week -- smushed, crushed, enveloped, unable to breathe, get-away-from-me stuff.

I took four days off to think about it, then wrote about what was going on with me. She's backed off and doing some of her own work to figure out what was up with her need to rush into things. Meanwhile, we're chatting at a more normal level and I no longer feel as though I'm drowning in a sea of warm blankets and coziness.

She still smooches great, though, even if I haven't been able to in more than a week. A reward after my stint in the work-related salt mines, I hope....

And how are you and the wife and the kids and the grandbabies? They must be getting around pretty well, now. The grandbabies, that is. Is it still as awesome as it was?

Mmmm, tomatoes. Send me some when they're ripe, okay?

Come by after work, and you can pick a bag full.
- Bout late June.



Having a very busy time at work these days. I have about 60 hours of work to do before Tuesday evening. A challenge. *sigh*

Did you get it all done? We left you alone so you could work !!





The world of dating is interesting. I hit a point of being utterly overwhelmed last week -- smushed, crushed, enveloped, unable to breathe, get-away-from-me stuff.

That doesn't sound like you. Well, I admit I don't know a lot, but.........do you know why?

And how are you and the wife and the kids and the grandbabies? They must be getting around pretty well, now. The grandbabies, that is. Is it still as awesome as it was?

Two of them are running now - I mean they go head over heels - and most of the time they don't crash. Had one year B day party for them in March. The other one lives away, she is about 6 months, havn't seen her since Dec.

Better than I thought.

Been thinking about ya, one of these days I'll drop you an e'mail.


SS

Tomatoes. Mmmm. Tomatoes.

Yes, I did get it all done. I was utterly focused on work for more days than I can count (well, okay, ten), and am only now starting to surface. There's still a great deal that I need to do, but there are no pressing, immediate deadlines. I feel good about the work that I've done in the last two weeks. It's amazing how clean it can feel to be writing contract specifications and technology assessments instead of mucking about in the difficult realm of human relationships.

Though even there, human relationships come into play. I still can't figure out why our client would lie about what he knew just to see if he could create a bigger problem than was really there.

Being overwhelmed was a combination of things, I think. More than anything, it seems that I don't have the emotional reserves necessary to dive into a long-term relationship right now. My energy is invested in other things, and the attempt to balance them ended up with much of it on its head. I move very slowly in building relationships, and the one I was dating does not. She got too far ahead, and I couldn't keep up.

She and I had a talk about it this week, after the big report went out. We ended up agreeing that we prefer to solidify the friendship than continue a romance that is fraught with risk. I like that. I could use a friend like her, I think, and Sunday we're going to venture out very early in the morning and go see the cherry blossoms. After a bracing trip to Starbucks, that is.

Please do drop me an e-mail -- I always like hearing from you. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

It's amazing what a difference a day will make.

Particularly when your accountant calls to inform you that you owe the IRS tens of thousands of dollars.

Yes, that's right. I said tens (plural) of thousands (thousands) of dollars.

Why? Because of the asset that I had to sell in order to pay off my ex to get her to leave me alone. I had owned it since I was 10 or 11 years old... and ALL of its worth was capital gains.

I'm really, really, really ready to be done. All of it. Just done.