Lurky--I mean LINY reporting for duty, sir, rif, sir!
Hey Idiots!!! Miss me? (No matter how you answered: Yeah right!)
Feeling like I'm at that MB crossroad myself. I know I've said this before, but those "breaks" weren't for any reason but to appease brown because this is what i thought she wanted. Now? It's because time with each other is what we need--what we want. And just with this n/s--d/s thing, we already feel like we steal anytime we have with one another (while we're awake!)
As much as I love Idiotville, outside of here, I don't think I can make any contribution. Half of me says, God forbid--I'm human. The other half is not being very logical in putting my thoughts together to help someone else out. Brown and I need to help ourselves out first. We need to work on us. I don't want to blow my last chance with the most wonderful woman in the world. (And that's not even kissing up--she hasn't even been lurking that much.) There's just sooo much going on right now...
Quick update:
--G: going on week 4
--brown is still unsure on whether she is going to expose to the OWH...regardless of what i think, not my call...HOWEVER, i will be behind her 100% whichever way she decides, even if she wants me to call OWH
--lots of good communication going on...no more lies (the G was really, really, bringing us down and really was the nucleus of all of this crap...among other things about me.) And boy does it feel good not having to think about how to get out of this one, or what's gonna bite me in the rear. Just honesty.
--trying my best to make brown feel safe again...just lots of triggers all over the place
--youngest D is eating much better last few weeks. Milk intake at where it should be...still not taking the iron...tried everything.
--sons playing tag team--oldest S actually held a job for a whole week! I think he is starting to feel satisfied with himself and the hard work he's putting in is paying off. He's also creating boundaries finally with his friends, it seems; youngest son back to smoking, no self-respect, disrespectful to evryone, and constantly lying to us (He got that honestly.)
--oldest D starting to lie too--little ones, stupid ones, which is really ticking brown off to no end. (I guess she gets that honestly as well, huh?)
--work? i'm being very pessimistic. i'll leave it at that.
Robby, welcome back--i dont think you can leave ivile alone again for more than a day!
FF & AW--tag! you're it. be gentle with the mayor, K?
.--it's about time you posted! see? ya still know how to kill a thread! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />
starz--keep that rifle handy
bob--i don't know if this is going to make sense, but i sense a bit of inner turmoil, huh? almost, fear, lack of confidence, lack of knowing for sure--MHO? You're starting to trust your squid again. i may be way off (and will prob be told to f off (not by you--although, maybe <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> ), but from my side of things, that is going to be difficult for me. Your squid is so headstrong--ok ok, stubborn like me! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> And i don't think i've ever fully trusted ANYONE in my life, myself first and foremost. and the old saying, you hurt the ones you love the most is so true. and even before my A i can see it. it sux. its a lot of rebuilding in me. just be patient with her, bob. you've come so far.
yl--where the heck ar you? (Hope things are ok.)
rh--i dont know if you'll understand this, but...dont try--just do. you seem like you have alot to offer.
gc--i have to be honest with you: when i first started posting, I said to myself, WTF? And i saw the hurt and love collidong with one another. and the mess sparrow caused. but the smoke is fading, the ashes settling. and i see one hell of a guy with one hell of a good attitude on life and himself. i mean that. you deservew so much more. one day someone will have the honour to receive what you have to offer. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />
de--"you so rock." keep it real hon. this too shall pass. and if nio can catch up to you, all the more better!
RIF--the eternal optimist and supporter. there were some days when i just stared at your words and kept repeating them. i only wish you the best--and words really can't say what a great time i wish you to have in a week--a week!!!! thanks.
believer--you have been such an inspiration...a cross between a swan, a gorilla, and you. i'll let you figure that one out. i wouldnt be here--or here in iville if it weren't for you.
i really didn't start out writing this as a goodbye...but it sorta sounds that way toward the end, huh? i WILL check in every so often. and i will probably always lurk! if anybody wants, (i woul dcertainly love to hear from all of you!), my address is fitzirishcream@optonline.net. i just got avg 7.0, so no viruses please!
mr. mayor, please ensure all of these idiots are taken care of--in particular you. passing the mirror back to you. KY let me borrow it for a day or two. (Wow does mauve make me look fat!)
please take care of one another in here--it really is a safe haven and nice escape for a while. but i've been escaping my wholelife. i've got me to discover and brown--well, i learn something new about her everyday and what a truly amazing woman and friend she is to me.
not good bye--just, cya later.
LINY
