RIF, mate !!!. I'm doing much better thanks !.

I am learning that when I have a 'burden' to do something unpleasant that I need to do it makes me miserable until I do it. I REALLY REALLY needed to challenge Squid to do more 'recovery' work not just 'life support' stuff. I stuffed it all over the holiday season but one I had that talk ( even though it made my baby cry <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" /> ) I felt much better, like a boil had been lanced.

I should learn that when I have a burden to do stuff like that I should just do it, not stuff it.

I leave Vegas on Saturday, getting home Sunday lunchtime. I'm doing better than I hoped, I'm missing Squid but I'm not worried she is contacting OM, and I thought I would.

I thought about you earlier, I dunno how you do those huge seperations, NOT from a 'worry' perspective but from a 'not ENJOYING your baby and your kids' perspective.

Another three and a half months mate and you'll be there, just in time for spring !!

* KY, I still suspect Squid when she says sh loves me a little. After all she told that reptile the same words a few months ago so the currency of the phrase from her is cheapened a litle if I am honest BUT she behaves as if she loves me too, so thats gotta be good. Time will heal that in me, I know.

BORING day scheduled today, sat on my @ss on hard seats for six hours or so. I may buy a cushion !!

LOL!


* Jen, I know you feel exposed posting outside I'vile and ', not really sure why. Noodle has a problem with all WS/OPs, and had a pop at you a few weeks back BUT while her words were true, you KNEW that already.

BS ususally do hate OPs. Maybe thats the outer ripples of healing that needs to happen. FBS/FWS have to reconcile then together must face the others affected by the A outside the epicentre maybe.
I know Squid feels everyone who knows thinks shes a tramp and that I am crazy to take her back. Thats not acually true but it's how she feels.

Not saying you do Jen, just that you can hold your head up high here. Like somebody posts every month or so on the boards " it snot our sins that define us but our reaction to them'. You have reconciled with Rob and God , helped countelss broken hearts on here ( me included) and over time you will forgive yourself completely.

Stinging BS's might throw righteous rocks occasionally, but that don't mean you can't dodge 'em <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> .

Also sometimes when a simple truth is posted up, some people dunno what to respond. It doesn't mean the post wasn't welcomed or useful, just that nobody could argue with it.

I hope you can post on the wider boards sometime jen.

And yes, I go through phases - when I feel down or weak I feel hypocritical posting up encouragement to others. Also its a bit of a burden being a benchmark of plan A success sometimes. It feels I betray some desperate followers of my story when I moan about some small thing that is big to me.

Thats why I go though phases of NOT posting, like the past six weeks or so prior to this week.

Love yer Jen

{{{{{{jen}}}}}}


DEA

Good Morning Idiotville!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Interview is tomorrow at 11:30 am AZ time. Followed by 5 more. Should be done by 6. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Jelly, the bar glasses will always need washing. Just can't drink margaritas out of styrofoam. The salt will not stick to the edge. (I've tried it) Of course, that is really the bartender's job, but since we don't have one ...

<img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Brown - need a chant here -

Go, Robby! Go Robby, go robby,gorobby gorobby...

RIF, Good morning RIF, you sweet sensitive fisherman you. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> fisherman </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Just wondering where a fisherman goes to catch fish in the desert?

(and no this isn't a joke, at least not on my part)

morning Iville! {{{Jen}}} Sorry you are feeling down. Seeing a young life lost really is hard. I post outside of Iville too. I try to be open about being a FWS but I am a BS too. I have gotten beat up once or twice but figure hey i don't know them and they don't know me. I know the pain of being a BS and it is very hurtful. I have seen some of your posts Jen and they are very helpful and thoughtful. You and Jelly have been tremendously helpful to me. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Big hugs to you RIF so far away from your family and protecting the world. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Robby prayers for you. God will let you know if this is the right sitch for you. PRAY before you go to the interview.

Ok, anyone else I missed {{{Iville}}}

Oh, and hi to Bob in Las Vegas. You are a good man Bob. Squid is a very lucky woman.

Since I can't afford to be fined by editing I am ***waving at RH*** say hi to NOW for me!

RH, did I imply RIF is fishing in the desert??? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Kimmy (I still haven't found an abbreviation for you that I like since you switched your name. Do you have a preference?) </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Kimmy is fine. I like it a lot, in fact.

Starz - I was thinking of you on my way home Friday night - how we didn't hear much from you last week, so I sent up a flare prayer for you b/c I missed you. ((((STARZ)))

Robby - I crossed EVERYTHING for you - fingers, toes, legs....um, I even crossed myself for good measure! Good luck!

Jen, I love you hon.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Could this be Maurice Snedak? </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I don't think so...and I love him!

There a quite a few "out there" kids books that I adore: Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs - is a fav. The Fart Book is another.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Hi fighting no your not alone -just wandering around -trying to find myself.
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">My eldest has a t-shirt that says: Try not to let your mind wander, it's too little to be out by itself.

Morning Faithful, will pass the hi to NOW.

Morning Kimmy (almost put Dealan, just to throw you off)

KY:
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> did I imply RIF is fishing in the desert? </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">No. Just not sure where you got that RIF was a fisherman, probably from a conversation that I missed? Anyway, I wasn't sure if you mean he fished in the mid east or if he was a fisher of men (biblical reference) or what?


<img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Cool]" src="images/icons/cool.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Morning Kimmy. How are you today darling???

You look great, I can sense it. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Sure is pretty out here!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Had a heated conversation with W Saturday night. Asked her what she really thought about AZ job. She said "Well, you'll never see S."

D is going to be ugly.

Custody uglier. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

{{{{{JEN}}}}}

I understand completely. However, you are a "wise head" as far as I'm concerned, so keep posting. There are those, who will only ever see us as a WS. Shame on them, but forgive them, they know not what they do.

Where is Bob when I need his quote??????

{{{{{Robby & little bear}}}}}

Tell my RICH cousin I said Hello. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Sure you'll see your son, you can come visit us anytime you want, why do you think we are coming to FL?? Mickey?? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by kyellow4:
<strong>why do you think we are coming to FL?? Mickey?? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> </strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Yes, Mickey!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />