</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">it wasn't that I missed him, it was that I missed that life I had. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">SHMI, Yes. That is it. I miss most of that old life. I miss the life that I could have offered my children and the future that I could have offered my STBX.

My goal is not to dwell on that lost future ( NO it wasn't lost, it was stolen, destroyed, and discarded by my STBX and her boyfriend).

I have a new goal to make a new future like the one I envisioned with a real partner. And to try to offer my kids all the things that were taken from them. They were robbed of having thier father home and around whenever they need him. Now they have a father that has visiting priviledges.

As bad as I feel I was wronged, ... it was really the kids that got the worst part of the deal.

Out of the whole family only my STBX got exactly what she wanted. And I guess that is really what it is about for her.

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TR take care of DS.

<small>[ January 14, 2005, 05:07 PM: Message edited by: Tom Joad ]</small>