Thank you Faithful.

I thought of you in the mountains as there was this mountian next to us called Glory Mountain where you could go up an sing gospel music and pray.

You would have enjoyed it I think.

Hope you are well, I need to read you thread but just can't right now.

He's an A-hole, message's on return home confirmed that. That is for sure. But if it takes me the rest of my life, I will get over him.

I am beginning to think I am crazy. Who could love someone like that. Am I some kind of masochist?

jls, are YOU doing okay? I hope so.

Weaver,

I'm glad you had a good trip. I should visit that area myself sometime. It's been awhile.

Sorry for your suffering with XBF.

Is it too late to undo the land deal?

I can't believe he would head for the exit so soon after that!

-AD

weaver,

Oh hon, I am sooo sorry! ((((((((hugs weaver))))))).

I am so disappointed in the exbf. I guess my last post to you after you left for vacation was who I am, I just wanted to believe that there is good in everyone.

I bet you feel pretty used. Well, I guess we all have tempers, myself included, and I can see where you were at before you left. Not feeling secure, but you trusted in exbf and here you are. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/confused.gif" alt="" />

Got to check your other thread, will go there now. It's okay if you don't check my thread, but no, it is not about my marriage, it is about my DD, partially, but not necessarily a bad thing that she did. The rest you can read for yourself when you feel stronger.

Have your pity party. It is okay to grieve. I am sorry exbf was such a coward as to not talk to you face to face after all you have been thru. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />

My prayers go out to you and that God will Bless you.

Oh, and has anyone told you you are WORTHY today? Well, I am telling you now. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> You deserve better, you are worth more than a blow off by a message. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />


Love in Christ,
Miss M

Weaver said.. (on may 22),


Or he's having an affair with her, and she's part of the plot to get the land for cheap.

AD.

LOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!

Yeah, I have THAT side of me also. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/blush.gif" alt="" />

But it is not what we should do.

However, it is one of those things that make you go Hmmm?

Pray for those who persecute you. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" />

Love in Christ,
Miss M

This is making my blood boil so God only knows how you are feeling. I hope you get some revenge - keep the messages on the answerphone. They might provide some kind of proof (re the lie about his dad's surgery). Inexcusable.

Oh, Weaver-girl, I am so very sorry.

I know we all had hope that the guy would straighten up and fly right this time. His efforts at kindness and "sincerity" as well as helping you work on your properties had most of us fooled, hon. Even pessimistic old me, in the end. (*sad smile*)

I know you know this but you are doing the right thing. The right thing on the hard road, but the right thing.

Seek justice, but with quiet dignity and not rage, if you can -- it will better settle the turmoil in your heart. You sound as if you know this and are doing it already, instinctively.

And you may not always feel it, but know that we all know that you are strong, and capable, and valiant. No matter what.


Love you, {{{Weaves}}},

slh

How's my little masochist????

You don't need that silly little Island anyways, it just ties you to that boring place you and my husband call paradise. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/rolleyes.gif" alt="" />

So sorry he failed you, and took the Island, what a schmuck!!!

Here's to your new start, cheers. Enjoy your life, think of all the energy you will now have. Find your Mr. Wonderful. He will obviously be a drunk fisherman and wear flannel, you can't expect more than that from BFE.
<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />
You said, your exbf's mom lives in St. Louis, would that be Michigan?????

Take care my cyber friend.

Much love, prayers going up.

KY

Deleted as inappropriate...sorry weaver. No offense intended <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />

{{{{weaver}}}}

C'mon, Bob. Where did anger ever get you but a fleeting modicum of satisfaction?

Not quite the long-term soul restoration I had in mind. . . but I will say d*mned fun, that, LOL.

<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />


slh

Thank you all for your continued support.

I am in a bad place still emotionally - confused, hurt and angry. Frustrated too.

Can't even laugh at KY's post or Bob's. Although I know that normally I would be rolling with laughter.

I call several atty's today and so far only one has called me back. He is actually an old friend of the families and said that he thought I might have cause for a legitimate lawsuit, but he declined to take it on for me. He said he didn't think it would be good for me emotionally and that it would cost several thousand dollars. He said it was too much like a divorce and he doesn't handle divorces.

He did recommend another up and coming young atty whose father is one of the judges here. I have a appt with him on Wed afternoon.

I am so torn and confused at this point I don't know whether to persue a lawsuit or not.

I am also very, very confused at what he has apparently done. I still haven't heard from him, so I have no answers. I believe there is another woman involved and this was the only way he could figure to get me out of the picture. It is the first time he has ever broke up with me, I always did the ending before. He is such a CA I still can't believe that he even left the Dear John messages, knowing him it would be more likely that he would just not call again.

I also made an appt with Steve Harley for 7am Wed morning. I need to talk to a professional to try and get a handle my emotions. I also know that I am somehow addicted to this relationship and I need help.

I also have been praying and even reading the bible. I caught MM's post with the 25th Psalms, it is bringing me some kind of peace.

But I am not finding the comfort I have always found in the past through prayer. I feel lost and very, very alone.

But I'll keep plugging away trying to forget, because the alternative is just to painful. And my DD needs me too much for me stay in this dark place for too much longer.

And Gray, she is doing good. She hates Dan now, he hurt her too. Thanks for asking.

{{{{Wevaer & DD}}}}}

Loving You, Hon. Prayers too.


slh

Weaver,
How are you.
As usual, I don't want the standard answer.

I am glad you saw the post on worth, and you you were welcome to copy it.

For a long time I was wondering how to get the same message across to you. It worried me that you were wondering about God, because a few months ago you wrote such a powerful testomony of your belief. I wondered how you could get so low.

I wanted to post to you before you left on the trip, but couldn't come up with the time to do the post I wanted. Probably should have said "HI" anyway.

What are your goals for this next year?

Family goals, and Personal goals?

Think on this, and then also consider if the things you are planning to do (having to do with Dan) will help you reach your goals.

I hurt for you - I am sure not as much as you do, but I feel so badly about how this worked out. Most of the pain is the betrayl, not the property loss.

Some of it is wondering how you let yourself be taken again.

Realize we are all working on our own problems. All of us. Realize you are not the only one to make mistakes. Please don't let this stop your marvelous growth. I have seen you come so far, don't believe otherwise.

Please have faith that you can continue your upward course.

SS

Thank you SLH. You're the best!

SS,

I came up with personal goals while in the mountain, one was to get a keyboard and start playing again. It's been over ten years now. Another was to get out and socialize, I made a promise to a friend last night that I would start going to church with her again. She wants to leave the bar life behind now and find other things to do. I am very grateful for this, as she was the friend who always got mad at me because I wouldn't go bar hopping with her. She attracts a lot of male attention and so do I, so she could go out with me and know I wouldn't be left sitting alone while she was doing her thing. So glad she is getting over that disgusting activity. Saturday night I wanted the men to jus t leave me alone. I thought they were disgusting, lost and empty. Looking to me to fill them up. And as drunk as I was the whole scene still made me sick.

So the bars are out.

I have an appt with SH on Wed morning.

I will try to find God again. I know I turned away from Him the last few years. I stopped talking to Him some times for weeks/months at a time. Dan became my God. I am so ashamed, and yet I still can't make myself believe he has done what he has.

Take care of my house and the rental out back.

Sell my other house to my sister, started but paperwork never completed for the Land Contract.

Those are my only goals right now, and when I can get up off the floor I will follow through with all of them.

I've been able to make phone calls and appts today, so that in itself is a start. And I'm not drinking, nor will I.

Weaver, this made me think of you:


Also remember:
For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. --Jeremiah 29:11

Thank you Faith.

You are one of Gods Angels you know, and I will try and believe.

FF,
Thanks, that was great - a lot like you.

SS

Weaver,
Glad you are leaving the bar scene again. In my opinion, it wouldn't have helped you with these goals.

I believe reading the bible daily will help. I promise there is someone there when you pray.

Thanks for talking to me, I know I shouldn't worry, but I do. It is so easy to slip and fall and not want to get up. So glad you do want to get up. I still believe in you. It is so good to know you do too.

If I asked for a personal favor, and it was someting you could do, would you?

SS