{{{{{{{WCNT}}}}}}}

I remember when you first posted, WCNT. You're a completely different person now - one with faith, love, hope and conviction. These things no one can take away from you. I'm saddened by the outcome of your M but am comforted in knowing that no matter what, your future will be so much brighter and happier than what it is today. That, you can be sure of, my friend.

Yes, you do deserve better than this. Be comforted in knowing you've done everything you can so that you regret nothing. Do what's right for you now and don't look back. We'll be with you every step of the way!

WCNT,

How are you doing?

Whisper,
I am doing fine. I am in day 6 of a stretch of home games that run 13 games in 14 days. I get Sunday off and then back at it Monday - Wednesday. We are in 2nd place trailing the leader by only 1 game and the third place team (2 games behind us) is coming in tonight for 5 games. With our regular season ending on Labor Day, these are very important if we are going to make the playoffs. So, I am staying very busy, which is a good thing.
WW is coming by the house every evening when I am gone to feed and exercise the dogs. Back in April or so, for my birthday present to myself, I went out and bought a flat screen tv and new dvd player for the bedroom. The old bedroom tv (WW's before we got married), I took out and sat in the living room floor with the screen towards the wall. I had offered it to her in my initial proposal for settlement (one that I knew she wouldnt take since I didnt want the D). In her counter, she proposed that she would get it. Well, the other night, she leaves a note asking me if her tv is broken. I responded with a note that it was fine and that I didnt want to use it and take a chance on it breaking down (didnt wanna have to buy two tv's if it broke). Here is what is strange......I felt sorry for her after reading the note. I could just hear her asking that question and how it would sound so pitiful to me. I dont know why it evoked that emotion, other than the reason that I know she has chosen a difficult path in life as result of her decisions. I even halfway considered leaving her a note that if she wanted the new tv she could have it. Why do I feel sorry for her? Crazy, isnt it?

No, not crazy in the least. You're simply an amazing human being who loves his wife. No more, no less.

Also, you're probably not aware of this, but you've already begun your grieving process. The first step is always denial. A mix of bargaining, anger, depression will follow before acceptance. You can find a wealth of information on this topic via the internet that will help you understand and get through this very turbulent time. Don't be surprised when your emotions will surprise, disappoint or even betray you over the next several months. Just hang in there. Your faith (and your support network - including us) will help you get through it.

Good luck on all your games!