I am not certain there is a PA, but definately an EA. I can only access his blackberry since it is a gov't account I can't get too far in, but I have seen her emails in his blackberry.

I think she knows he is married, but I am sure he says separated. That is why I want to contact her.

Good plan, Lost!

Scared to death...I'll be back on later.

Good thoughts and prayers needed!!!

Well, I am back. Took the drive into the city. I am very bad with confrontation, so I wrote down everything I wanted to say. Told WH I knew about OW and told him I want our marriage to work. How it is unfair that he brought in an outside party to our marriage. That we have 3 children who deserve a family with a mother and father and asked him to give up OW and let's work things out. Not exactly those words but you get what I mean!!

He was sad and scared and did not want to talk, which was fine for now. He took the paper. The only thing he said and it is one of the worst things I could hear so I was ready was...What if I don't want to be married any more? Will you and the kids move? I told him probably because this is not our home, but it would not be out of spite to him, just what would need to be done.

He told me he loved me and the kids. Now, the ball is in his court. I am sure he will say something, but maybe in an email because that is safe for him.

I feel better and worse. I think I should call Ow but am scared to death!!! Maybe I should email since that is safe!!! It is not as effective though. I hate being such a wimp!!!

So my life continues on, and I am glad I have said what I need to!

Went over to a friends so the boys could go in the pool today. She called just as I was driving home from the City and feeling pretty sad so it was perfect!!!

Had a great time and boys are tired from the pool and heat!

I am going to think of things I can be thankful for from now on.