Morning!!

I think more importantly you will be able to find peace of mind once he is on the road. You will know for sure that they are not together. Perhaps they will communicate by phone, perhaps not. But I think your mind will be at ease knowing she is not around him. You know him, you know life on the road for him...use that to your advantage to ease your mind from worrying.

Morning ,

I think your right about that Lisa. I know they will not be physically together so actually that does make me feel better. But I know them just talking still keeps the A going. I do know its going to make it harder for them and I do hope she finds that kind of life not for her. it's just a wait and see situation now..

Just hope I can wait it out .....

I have faith in you honey. I have great faith in your love and strength in your love for WS. I do. We won't let you fail him. You get weak, we'll pick you right back up.

Things are quiet now on my front. WS hasn't called me since our last conversation when I made peace with him. Exfriend hasn't called either. Very quiet, which is nice.

I know that this am WS is going hunting with one of his friends. Funny just knowing that my body clock woke up at the usual time he would leave. It's like I'm there with him. I don't know why. It was such a ritual with us this time of year. Damn memories all to ******. We didn't end up going to Oktoberfest last night after all. Too hot and besides I think the memories would have had me looking for him there all night. So DD went to the movies with friends and I stayed home.

If you're up this am...look for Lakewood Church on TV. I've been watching it every Sunday. It's like he's talking to all of us. Last Sunday I cried the whole show. I swear he was reaching into my heart and soul about WS. It will be on here at 7:30am. I am sure it is on up there too. I don't go to church but I do enjoy listening to Joel Osteen every week.

I'm not going to give up on him. I know right now he wants me to. But my heart and soul say don't. For whatever reason, something won't let me let give up hope on him. He said in our last conversation that he still cared about me and wanted to be my friend. I know he needs me there for him. I will be there when he needs me.

I do have great love for him and I won't give up... Its just so hard to have faith at times.

I know your not giving up on yours either. We both just have to wait for the time to be right, so we can be there for them.

We will make it through this and become stronger people for it. I just know we will....

I understand about the body clock thing. I wake up every morning at the same time my H always did to go to work... You would think after 2 months I would stop that. Sometimes it feels like when I wake up its like I feel him. Do you know what I mean?

Today will be a good day I am determined it will be....

I hope to God it makes us stronger...I do. I am so fortunate to have found the people on this board. Their love and wisdom and their stories are all so wonderful.

Yes...I think sleeping without him there was the hardest thing to overcome. It took virtual weeks for me to get past it and actually going away and staying at a hotel to finally get a good nights sleep.

Much to do today...so hopefully can keep him off my mind for just a bit. I think I am finally going through the depression stage...I've been in drama for so long with WS and the exfriend, I never had the chance to feel all these feelings that I have had inside the past couple of days since my Therapist visit. I just wish that WS would sober up enough to see all the damage this "friend" did. Truthfully, I've never known someone so manipulating before. I think I truly have lost all trust and faith in people over all this.

I have to totally agree with all you said. these people here have been a god send....

without them i think I would have lost my mind by now... Friends and family have been great also but I know they have gotten tired of hearing all of this over and over....

God will help us get stronger so we can face whatever happens....

Well it happen..... SIL and WH came today and he took all the rest of his clothes and stuff and put it in storage....

I come back and its all gone.... I felt like as long as it was here he would be coming home... Now I feel so empty ...

It makes everything seem so final....

Hang in there ladies. I know how hard is is. I had a HORRIBLE time sleeping alone at first. I got a huge full length pillow to cuddle with. The bed just seemed so empty without WH.

Now I sleep like a rock and my days are good again. You will get there too. Don't give up, the statistics favor the marriage.

Ah sweetie, I am sorry...but it's okay!! The stuff is gone...it hurt me at first and then I got past that. Because it was actually more painful for me to SEE his stuff and not see him.

What have you done today? I've been a very productive girl!! Went grocery shopping picked up the Joel Osteen book. Reading it now while I take a break. Been absolutely tearing apart the bedroom. Scrubbing, vacuuming every nook and cranny. I think I will start painting in a couple of weeks the walls that need to be touched up.

It's not final...but now he faces having all his stuff. Just let it be. This too shall pass. I'm here for you...so is everyone else. I've had a rough couple of days too. But we'll be okay.

Yes believer, it was tough at first. Believe it or not...yes at 42, I will sometime snuggle with a stuffed penguin he bought be a few years ago...is that pathetic...lotsa tears in that penguin the past couple of months.

I just feel so lost now... thank you for being on here today .... I can't stop crying, I thought with everything gone I would feel better. Boy was I wrong...

I truly thought as long as he left some here he would be back.... I know he may still be back but seeing it all gone and the empty closet makes me feel awful......

This just hurts so much ....

I know, I know...have had a few bad days here lately myself. Even started reading over my initial posts on here seeing what I have done wrong so far. If I could do it all over again, I would have done stuff differently...not listened to exfriend for one. But the past is the past, right? Can't dwell on it, but look to the future.

My Therapist said I was still in the bargaining phase of grieving...well if she could see me now...what a blubbering mess I have been the past couple of days. It's all seems so final...but we haven't seen the fat lady sing quite yet. Have faith...have lots of faith in your love for him.

Just wanted to give you a hug!

{{{{{{Hurting}}}}}}}

The pain must be unbearable, but you can do this. Keep telling yourself that!

I do have faith Lisa.... I putting all my faith in god to help me through this ...

I talked to my SIL ans she said that she feels that by WH going on the road everything will be ok... I asked her how do you feel that? she said just by little things he has said to her.... I hope she is right.....

I do have faith in my love for him... He knows I love him with all my heart.... I also know he loves me to somewhere deep inside.... Even SIL says I know he loves you I can see it and hear it in his voice when he talks about you...

So I guess its just a matter of time now... I have to let go and let him fall and just be waiting to help him....

Thank you Lost for the hugggg.... I didn't realzie how much it would hurt to have all of his things gone... In a way with it all here it was like part of him was still here...

Now its all gone and no trace left except a few things that don't really matter....

I just don't know what to do right now.... I do feel lost

My SIL had a idea but I want to run it past everyone here...

The job my WH is leaving is a cement mixer driver. I have the qualifications for the job.... her idea was for me to go down there and see about getting his job. She even asked WH about it and he said he would even get the app for me and talk to the boss....

Well I am not sur I want to do this... Everyone who works there knows he left me and is living with another woman.. I am not sure I could handle being around all of his fellow workers. I know I did nothing wrong but I don't know if I could handle all of pity or looks.... Not only that this was his place of work for almost 4 yrs. I just don't know if I could be comfortable being there..... It will be way to many memories for me .... I don't know what to do ...

He won't be quitting until the end of the week so I know I could not be there until he is gone ...

I'm just not sure i can handle it emotionally......

Perfect opportunity. Do you need to work? Yes it could go either way but I think you should try.


JMHO,
L.

Hmmm....I look at the OTHER way around...this could be a wonderful chance for you to shine. Of course let the experts on here advise...but you need a job. You would be replacing him at his current job. That fills a void for the companny. The fact is that most people there would be aware of the situation. Talk about being a heroine...shining up there and showing them that you can make it. I would think it would be a chance for you shine and show him you can do it!! The guys there will be quite sympathetic if anything...sheesh I highly doubt you would get pity or looks of anything but great self-esteem and respect from them. You wouldn't be playing the victim or martyr. Just a woman who's been done wrong by her man. I bet that will earn you even more respect and admiration...but again wait to hear the experts...I'm just a peon around here...but I care!!

ty ladies for your input.... I am really going to think on this ... it would be a great oportunity the money is good , the hours are long on some days.

I really need to sleep on this one for sure .....

People have their own lives and their own problems. The people at your H's work, won't give your sitch a second thought. Pursue it if you think it's something you'd like to do.

I'm actually very surprised WH came and got his things. Everything, even tools?

Nope most of the tools are here.... I was surprised as well... he did leave some things... was funny he took all of the cards and letters I have given him over the years as well. I made him a certificate a few years back that had red hot lover on it and he took that to. He did leave some stuff like his car colletables and his harley stuff.. Him taking the cards and letters really blew my mind..

Him taking it all really made me feel like he is not coming back though ...