Our internet connection was cut yesterday. therefore I could not continue writing .The things I wrote below should have been here yesterday. Please read my previous and this posts together.
During our conversation, my husband told me that he wants her ex-wife(ex-me) back because he is still in love with her and only that woman used to belong to him. Addition to this he loves me(me after A) but he is not in love with me right now.I do believe that. Because his behaviours when I was very sick were evidences. I had a food poisioning last Saturday. I had nausea, diarrhea, dizziness etc. I was not very well whole day. Last Saturday was the only day that my husband was working. He owes many sick leave days to his company. I called him at 1 pm and let him know that I was not feel well and I was vomiting and my blood tension lowered and I could not get up for 15 min on the floor of our bathroom and I would go to bed. He did not offer to come and take me to the hospital. I felt myself like I was acting as Rex(Bree`s husband) in Desperate Housewifes. Does anybody remember the last season final in which Rex was dead? Around 6 pm my sympthoms were getting severe and I called my husband again and I want him to come and take me to hospital. He came 1 hour later and called me when he was parking the car and ask me if I could come to downstairs. I could not even get up from my bed because I was feeling cold and having stomach ache he was asking me to come down. So you see I was similar to Rex. He came to upstairs and got me dressed and brought to the hospital finally.
When he was about to catch a cold, he accused me not paying him enough attention even though I asked what he wanted and I offered hım to get some pills. He prefered to go to bed. I went to bed 1 hour later because I had to complete a commetee report till next day morning. As far as I was awake, I was rolling him with my arms to make him warm.
If we look back to Sunday evening , the argument between my H and my mom was getting severe and my mom kept asking to change the deed, and then my H burst out .He told my mom that he will never talk to her again forever. My mom told the same thing to my H. I would not expect my mom to be so calm. She took her luggage and then she left home. I went after her but she was so sure to leave the home. So, I let her go. I do know one reality that my mom believes I did try to make this marriage work. This makes me a little comfortable. When I came back to our apartment my husband was also ready to leave. He was putting some shirts into a small bag. I told him that today will be cold and take warm sweaters. Then he left and told me that not to be sick.
I was alone in a place that I would have a good life. I had nothing, just me and empty apartment.
Last edited by berry77; 10/18/05 05:57 AM.
