I am their SM but their REAL mom lives down the street.(Real mom does live down the street and rarely visits w/ them. No more than 8 times/yr.) I feel like an outsider who does all the hard work.
dkjjhkr - I hear the struggles you are facing and it would be very easy to "pick on you" for those feelings you express. However, you ARE human and you need to understand your priorities, which you apparantly do not. I say that because you CLAIM to be a Christian, so I will speak to you AS a brother in Christ, not as an unbeliever.
You seem to have a rather poor concept, or poor understanding, of God and your "role" as a Christian child of God. So the "number one" area you need to address is your relationship with God and what it means to be "humbly follow God."
Let's look for a minute at the above quotation and modify it a bit to illustrate what I'm trying to say to you:
I am their StepFather but their REAL Father lives down on Earth.(Real father does live down the street and rarely visits w/ them. No more than 8 times/yr.) I feel like an outsider who does all the hard work. Signed, God the Father of all my "stepchildren".dkjjhkr, do you want to talk about what it MEANS to be a Christian and HOW to be a Christian in more than just claiming to be a Christian? Without God FIRST in YOUR personal life, you are going to continually have these struggles.
Also, while YOU have claimed to be a Christian, is your husband also a Christian, or did you marry "unevenly yoked?"
God bless.
