at peace,

I'm happy for you that things are gong well.

"Teenagers" in the house..........YIKES!!!! My daughter (23yo)just had a baby and we were talking the other day. She told me that she really "admired" me for the strength that I had when she and her brother(26yo) were still living at home.
A WS that had his head stuck up his $&%% and 2 children that thought they were in their 30's sure was the battle of my life.........

Yet when I look back, I think I did a pretty good job.

As I wrote before, I am happy that I stayed on track even when my "Dearly Loved ones" told me otherwise..........

The affair affected our complete family but we have all learned from this experience and the best thing of all is that our children have learned and seen that it's important not to "give up" and that even if the situation might appear hopeless it is worth fighting for.

I'm prowd that we were able to set the best example for our children even if the situation was terrible and this "might" help them for their future.

bb

anyname,

you asked how I got out of my depression........well, at the beginning I had a medication to help me sleep,
I once took an overdose and my husband and the doctor took it away from me.............
So I "lived through" my depression..........I actually took it as it came.
I'm very lucky that I have my office at home and I don't have to leave the house to work.

When I look back, I somehow really don't understand how I got out of it..........hmmmmmm

I wasn't able to function in my daily life. I would break down in the middle of "nothing". I slept alot and I cryed alot. I didn't leave the house unless I really had to......

Then slowly but surely I started to feel mad. When I found out that my husband had lied to me once again, I was "furious"! I was truely ready to pack up and leave.

Never before in my life had I been depressed. My husbands affair and the lies affected me so deeply.......
But something inside of me just had enough..........

So I guess it was something "inside" of "me" that gave me the strength to overcome my depression. Never again do I want to be there. Since my husband went through all of this "together" with me, he respects me and he understands my deep need for honesty..............

bb