Yep, I'm happy to say she's only had one ear infection, thank goodness.

Its all that good mommy milk! (well, minus the body glitter!) <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Well, gosh. The guy called again last night. Said WH plans to accuse me of a "2+ year lesbian relationship" with one of my friends. On top of that, the reason why he wants my medical records is b/c he thinks he can prove I'm being treated for mental illness. Apparently they also say I'm fat and nasty. Ha. Size 2, thank you very much! This is just so ridiculous that I should be laughing. However, I'm ticked off that he may try to drag my friend into this. The fact that he feels he has to make up stuff is a good sign for me, I guess, since there's nothing else.

The guy did say it hit the fan yesterday b/c the OW called him all upset about the discovery stuff my lawyer had sent over to WH's lawyer. He says he told her that he hadn't spoken to me, so she thinks I illegally obtained her records in order to get the info to ask the questions. I asked him if he had any indication that WH was angry at OW for blabbing their business to a third party, and he said no. Said WH is mad, but not at OW. Said he hangs on her every word like a puppy.

Now that I know they know he's talking to me, I'm probably not going to talk to him anymore. Who knows what kind of garbage she'll say...

Oh, and I looked at the requenst for admissions more carefully. It says we will be seeking compensation if he denies something that we can prove to be true. And everything on there is provable.

Wow, I hate that this seems to be getting nasty. Maybe it is all just intimidation tactics.

Even if it is just trash talk, it is still very disturbing.

Oh, I would ignore it. My WH got real nasty when I filed D papers. He said his attorney was gonna squeeze me for every dime he could get. It was all talk.

Yeah, SM. What of that CAN the prove?? It's ridiculous. They are just grasping for SOMETHING. Your WH knows he's in deep.

Stay strong. I know it's kind of freakin' ya out.

Kim

Oh yeah the ol' reverse psychology lesbian affair accusation. Been a while since I heard that one . . . sheesh.

Even so, the whole thing really stinks.

Feeling pretty bummed tonight. DD and I had a great day together. She just played and played all day, and it was really fun being with her. Made me sad, though, thinking about how our family SHOULD be but isn't.

Geez, even got misty at a car insurance commercial showing a mom, dad and baby. A car insurance commercial!!!

I swear, sometimes I feel really confident about myself and my capabilities of dealing with this whole thing. But then, sometimes I am so scared. I'm scared I'm going to be lonely forever. It's been over 6 months since he's been gone. I know that's not long in the greater scheme of things, but it has been a very lonely time.

I saw this show on cable today, #1 Single. Remember the pop singer, Lisa Loeb? It's a reality show of her search for love. She's 37 and has never been married. If someone as beautiful and talented as Lisa Loeb can't find love, what chance do the rest of us have? Pretty depressing.

You won't be lonely forever. Lisa Loeb is probably a mess.

Think on the life God wants for you and DD, the good things beyond all expectations or dreams that He can bring into your life if you become subordinate to His will. He loves you and DD and has great things in store for you, I just know it.

MSA

Maybe you're right about Lisa Loeb being a mess... she DOES have Hello Kitty throw pillows on her couch!

Mommy - you are young, and your life is just beginning. Know that most men come back to their family.

SM--

the part about feeling confident and then suddenly feeling lonely, etc--i think that's normal. At least I hope so since that would describe my current state. I have dubbed this past week "intexas' pity party week.

Don't worry about finding love. Worry more about keeping whatever love you do have alive.

You and I are the same age. If reconciliation isn't in store for us, I am sure we have plenty of time to let love find us again. Just keep working on you.

Sorry you're having a bad day. I'd invite you over if you were closer--pretty lonely here today at work.

Well, it's been a little better today, even though DD was cranky this morning. Church was good, then WH came for DD. I went to a real estate open house and really liked the place. As much as I hate having to give up this place, I'm starting to get excited thinking about starting over in a new place, just for me and DD. It'll probably be months down the road before this house gets on the market to begin with, but at least I can daydream, right?

It is nice to be in a place where you really start to believe that life will be really good again one day. I am glad you and DD had a good day.

So much for "fostering a loving relationship with the other parent," which is in the settlement offer HE proposed. La Leche League is tonight, DD and I need to go, Tuesdays are usually WH's night, but he always switches so we can go. Last night I called to ask him about it, and he said no. Said he'll have to stay late Wednesday night and can't switch. He had a very hateful tone. I thought to myself, gee, WH, if you know you have a project to do and you have to stay late, why not stay late tomorrow night and get it over with?

I asked him why he was being so difficult about it as it's never been a problem before, and he said he was "just trying to get (his) job done." He said he'd check his calendar when he got to work today but "don't count on it."

Ha. He never had to stay late before. Guess the strain of keeping up three households is getting to him. Lots and lots of OT... I'm sure the judge will understand that he's not giving any of that to me for our DD and of course the judge will understand why he's not being supportive of DD breastfeeding... grrrr <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />

Saw him coming from OW's on my way from the babysitter's this morning. I KNOW he saw me, b/c he drove right past me as I waited to get onto the highway ramp. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/rolleyes.gif" alt="" /> I sweetly waved at him, even though I wanted to give him the one-finger salute!

Sorry you had a crappy WH interaction. Hope your day gets better.

Good Morning SM -

As far as fostering a relationship with the other parent, I'm sure that this is going to important for DD as time goes by. But...I think it will only be possible when some time has passed and the raw emotions of this begins to wane a little.

I know that it is beginning to become an issue in my mind that xW and I need to have at least a civil relationship because we have (grown) kids and will someday have grandkids, but it will take time for me to be ready for this. Each step forward seems to result in a leap backwards at times.

Georgia

Well, I went to LLL by myself. Well, not entirely by myself. Invited a friend who just had a baby. So it was cool.

GG, glad to know that even folks with way more life experience than me have issues with this kind of junk, too. Thanks for the support!

Hi SM -

I just what I'm wanting to say to you is that, in time, you will realize that WH is still DD's Dad...that will never change.

I know that it seems impossible right now, but I think in time you will need to consider having a "healthy" ("Loving"? I don't think so) relationship with him for the sake of DD.

Georgia