Tried to post another update, and once again got the "we
cannot proceed" message and lost my message- that happens
often now, and is very frustrating.

Don't remember all I was going to say, but basically there's
nothing new to report. I talked to my boss last night,
trying to find out more about what's happening with my job.
Sounds like unless I meet the huge sales goal I needed to
hit to get up to the required "rolling average" and out of
the "hole" this month, I'll lose my job by middle of July.
This is despite my getting many "thank yous", gifts, and
appreciations from clients, my having high marks on our
customer service surveys and monitoring, and the fact that
my co-worker will be leaving soon due to husband's transfer,
so I feel very frustrated and "un-appreciated".
Went home feeling really bummed, since I'm already worried
about what to do with the house, and my finances, and I
have no idea what else I can do or any job prospects !
I told my boss I'd much rather know in advance, be able to
leave things "in order",be able to make sure my clients were taken care of, and have a "designated" last day, than
for the big boss to come down and say "you're fired" and
everything be left in a mess-

Nothing new with WH. I assume he's staying busy with doing
his community service and also having to keep up with his
"real" job and clients. Also assume OW must be providing his
daily transportation back and forth, and is still staying
at WH's house. I saw a couple of transactions on our joint
checking last week from restaurants and a cash withdrawal
at a nightclub, so WH still apparently has enough time to
go out and do something fun, with OW <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />

Had a call from WH's house last Friday night, and I suspect
it was OW, not WH. I was out walking the dog at the time,
and didn't even see the call on the Caller ID until the next
day, but the reasons I think it was here was that WH never
has called from the "land line" (even when he first moved
out and we talked most nights, he always called on his cell)
and because if WH calls, he always leaves and message and/
or tries my cell. There was no message, and no calls to my
cell either-
Made me wonder if WH was out and OW was trying to see if he
was at our house or with me (no, sure wasn't, but let her
wonder), or why she would be trying to call.. ?
As you know, I also get occasional calls listed as "private
caller", which I have suspected were her. She has a history
of "working the phone" pretty well, as back when the A first
started, she "hacked" into WH's phone and listened to his
messages, deleting those she didn't like, and she used to
call him with her number blocked, knowing he wouldn't answer
if she wanted to leave him a message and not talk to him-

It's been a long week- ran to check on my parent's house
during lunch (they are out of town), and will mow the yard
tonight if it's not stormy.
Slammed

This is my third attempt today to post- what is the issue
with writing a message and getting a "we cannot proceed"
response that doesn't allow me to post ?

The weekend was quiet- did housework, ran errands, went
shopping, went out to lunch, did yardwork, and watched a
movie on Sat. evening. Yesterday I did a few things around
the house, then met my parents for lunch, and they came over
and "hung out" for awhile, as we had a huge thunderstorm w/
heavy rain and hail !
Later I did laundry, watched a movie, and walked the dog.

I'm working today and have lots to do, but it's hard to keep
a good attitude and keep pushing for business when I know
I'll likely lose my job within the next couple of weeks.
Had talked to my boss last week to get more info on the
situation, and he was to talk to the "higher up" boss the
following day, but since then he's not said a word, and will
be on vacation the rest of this week !
Several other factors are happening, such as an agent at our
other office quitting at end of this week, and my co-worker
here planning to leave by end of summer, but don't know if
any of it will make any difference on my position. Even if
I could just continue to work another month or more, it'd
help to have more time to look for something else, as well
as continue to get paid.

Had a message at home from WH on Friday. He asked if I had
checked on our federal tax refund again, since "he thought
we ought to have it by now", and also asked if I could fax
some insurance paperwork to him, as he's having a hard time
getting our insurance to approve more IC visits for him (he
has to do more, as part of DUI sentence). He sounded very
business-like on the phone. I did call to check on the tax
refund and found it had been deposited in our account that
very day, and pulled out the insurance paperwork he'd need
(his filing cabinet with paperwork is still at our house).
Guess I could fax the insur paperwork to his house fax and
just put a note on it to say tax refund is here ??
(can't use our normal method of email since he has no access
to it now that's doing his community service)

Feel really discouraged that no contact has seemed to have
no affect on WH or the A. Guess I "overestimated" our good
times, life, and memories having any "power" to get WH off
the fence and out of "cake-eating", as he seems to just be
perfectly content to continue his daily life "playing house"
at his new home with OW. (Funny that she was to stay there
for "just a couple of days" while looking for a new place
and she's now been there over two months).

No way to know what's really happening with them, of course,
but from my end, seems like nothing "rattles" the affair.
Not even them both knowing the other is a liar, a pregnancy,
financial trouble, OW seeing for herself that everything I
said about WH is true, WH seeing for himself that OW is
clingy, desperate and controlling, her sending the porno
type photos and all WH's love notes and letters to me, her
being at "his" house, his losing his license, etc... has
seemed to "budge" them at all.

I'd hoped that OW (and her dogs) staying at WH's place would
bring about plenty of big LB's, and that his having to do
this community service would add even more, BIG TIME (early
days, her having to drive him, him having to keep up with
his regular work too, etc.) but so far it seems like the
only thing that has brought WH out of the "fog" long enough
to think with a clear head has been his getting the DUI,
but even that didn't last long and he was right back with
OW. Very disappointing, hurtful, and frustrating-

Slammed

I'm at work and trying hard to keep it together, but I'm so
upset right now, please help.

Answered a call here at work this morning, and it was WH.
(don't have Caller ID at office). I was very surprised since
he's made no attempts at contact since even before I went to
Plan B, other than leaving a couple of "business" messages
about our taxes, and also because he's supposed to be doing
his Comm. Service work which is in the mountains and out of
cell range.
After a brief greeting, WH said he had he day "off" today
and was at home. He asked if I'd heard anything about our
taxes, so I told him the refund had arrived and we briefly
discussed paying off the accountants and splitting the rest.
Then he asked if I'd been able to find the insurance papers
he needed, and I said I had found them and faxed it to his
IC yesterday.
Then, WH asked if I would meet him for lunch today ?
I said "as you know, I have nothing to talk about or any
reason to meet you unless you've ended it with OW and are
ready to work on us". WH said "There is NO us, I don't want
to be married, I want to be "alone", and we need to discuss
the divorce and getting the house up for sale right away."

I was so shocked, I didn't know what to do- but said "WH,
I wish you'd just be honest and say you're still with OW,
instead of always trying to say you want to be alone, since
you never have been !" WH then said, " OW had nothing to
do with it, it was none of my business, and that he didn't
need to have a reason anyway".
I realized I was on speaker phone, which WH has sometimes
done, but it made me leary that perhaps OW was there, and
again dictating what WH was saying, or pushing him for the
D and selling the house ? I said "is she there listening
and telling you what to say ?" He then got mad, and said
"No, that was never the case, had nothing to do with her"
(yeah, right !)

I know I probably shouldn't have gotten "into it" with him,
but I said "WH, I don't want us to get D because we had a
lot going for us, really have loved each other, and could
again. Don't you think that we could change, make things
even better for us both "? He said "NO, he didn't think so"
I said, "WH, don't you realize nothing is going to come of
that "relationship" with OW"? Don't you remember after you
got the DUI and came home, and seemed to be thinking clear
and out of the "fog" and said you didn't even know how you
got involved with something/someone like that?"
At that point, he picked up the phone (off speaker) which
again made me think OW might have been around and he didn't
want her to hear the adverse things he had said about her !
Right after that, he said "he had to go", because "she was
there". (talking quietly) I said "why is she there, doesn't
she work "? to which he said "I don't know" ???????

Whole thing again sounds like OW pushing him to get the D
and sell the house so he has no ties with me, but it was
very upsetting to hear him say he didn't want to be married
and wanted a D.
Should I do nothing, stay dark ? Feeling very discouraged
since he sounds just as foggy as he has for months...
Slammed

Oh, Slammed...

You broke PLAN B...

Of course, you need to STAY DARK...

You tried to TALK sense into a deceitful, lying, foggy WH?

I'm so sorry SLAMMED. You may have set yourself back a bit...

BACK TO PLAN B...DARK..DARK..DARK, Slammed. There is no way around this in order for it to be effective for you and/or your marriage.

I don't want you to feel beat up by me because I know how hard this all is..but I am wanting, like others here, to help you recover your marriage.

Would you find it helpful for me to point out the mistakes you made or do you already know?

ETA: Here's one helpful tidbit..The next time you even hear your WH's voice on the phone..HANG UP!!!

The goal is for him to PURSUE YOU if ever he wants to reconcile your marriage...

(((slammed)))
Can I just come and smack your WH a couple hundred times? He frustrates me...can't even imagine how it effects you!
You really don't know whats happening in la la land...don't want to know. STAY DARK>DARK>DARK. I know that sounds odd coming from me since I had so much trouble with it...but I believe in the process.

If he wants to persue the D...which is questionable...let him do the work. Fill out the papers...PAY for more lawyers which I doubt he could really afford right now anyway. Its FOG babble for the benefit of OW to SHUT HER UP.

Stupid alien!

Slammed,

Both times that your WH has contacted you, you know that the skank was there. He was performing for her, obviously under pressure. The very best thing you can do is shut him out and continue to Plan B. That must be driving her insane and she'll take it out on him. And though you were a bad girl and shouldn't have broken Plan B, if you had to break it... good for you for figuring out he was on speaker phone and pointing out what he'd said about the skank. I'm sure that she went nuts about that. But... I know I shouldn't encourage you to break Plan B. Please go back into dark mode.

I'm worried that you're not using Plan B to find peace and move on with your life. You seem to be spending a lot of time wondering what they're doing and thinking a lot about them. I wish that you could do something fun and adventurous with your life and take everyone by surprise, including yourself. Life may be throwing a lot of pain your way right now, but you can also use it as an opportunity to turn your life totally around and discover a new path.

Thanks Mimi, ChaCha and GrownUp-

Guess I was so surprised by hearing from WH that I just
didn't know what to do or say. I know that trying to talk
logic or sense with a "foggy" one never has done any good,
and sure got a big reminder of that today !
Made me mad, but also sad to realize WH is just as "foggy"
and WS *BS* as he's been all along during the A.

Sure does seem both this call, and his message a few weeks
ago were "performances" for the benefit of OW. She must
really be pushing and nagging about his getting D, and the
push about the house may be partly her pushing, or could be
his getting the loan on the other house. (or both)

Mimi- Thanks for always having compassionate thoughts and
suggestions, it helps to know you went though much of the
same and came out on the "bright side".

ChaCha- YEs, you have my permission to smack WH upside the
head- maybe it'll knock some sense into him !

GrownUp- I do hope OW heard me quoting WH about her ! Wish
I had a way to put a "bug in her ear" (or elsewhere !)about
all the negative things WH has said about her (when in a
more clear thinking mode). I don't think she has a clue
that WH continues to "play" her by telling her whatever
she wants to hear as far as our relationship, how things
were in our M, about our "D" (that there isn't one), etc..
Is she dumb, naive, both, or just doesn't care as long as
she "wins" by getting H from me ????

I am doing my best to use Plan B as a restful, healing time
and to try to move on with my life, but have to admit it's
very hard to feel like a "whole" person without H. He really
was my best friend, confidante, and constant companion so I
feel a big void. With the recent health issues, and now the
loss of my job looming and money worries, it's hard to find
anything fun or aventurous..
Slammed

First, feel secure that Plan B is working. Just keep doing what you're doing and stay dark.

I guess I'm transferring to you what I would do in the same situation. I tend to want to get a fresh start and new surroundings when I'm in a rut. That's why I keep thinking that doing a course away in some other part of the country or even in another country to retrain and get you completely out of your situation would be great for you. I think it would be great for your WH too, because you wouldn't be around for him to manipulate anymore and it would be a true 180 for you and one that would be good for you, IMO. But, that's me projecting and not necessarily what's best for you. It just seems to me that you are a person who needs a big change. Again, just my opinion...

Hi slammed,
Hope your day is going well.
Here is your horoscope for today:

A breakthrough is coming -- finally, you get a chance to get rid of whatever (or whomever) has been holding you back. The opportunity may not come until later in the day, so use the rest of your day to exercise your power in other ways. Instead of letting other people dictate the plan, put your own spin on things and try something you've been wanting to try for a while. This new phase of boldness will continue for a while, so expect an increase in responsibilities.

Sounds good to me...especially if the OW is the one that you get rid of! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Wouldn't that be something, ChaCha, if here horoscope were true today!

Slammed, please consider this... your WH has NOT filed for divorce or made any move to do it. He let the old petition expire. And he made a half-hearted attempt to fill out the paperwork to please her. He has only contacted you twice during Plan B and both times she was there. He hasn't called you one time where he could really speak to you privately. That tells you something. You've got to keep on track and stay dark. I bet you anything that you are a topic of conversation all the time and it is causing all kinds of upset and bad feeling between them.

While they are self-destructing, you can use this time to discover what you'd like from your life. Have you seen a career counselor? Since things are up in the air for you, maybe you can find a more stable career that you would really enjoy that would bring you some fulfillment and happiness.

Though you're feeling down about this whole thing (and who wouldn't), you are making a lot of progress.

Hi Slammed,

I hope your day is going okay. I'm sorry to hear about your recent unpleasant conversation with WH, but hope you will get back to PlanB again. Your WH does not seem to have the courage nor the financial resources to file for D now anyway. Frankly, he probably does not know what to do himself. He has this crazy woman at home who constantly pressures him to get D and move on with his life with HER, and he has a wife who still believes in their marriage despite what he has put her through. He put himself in this situation, but I got an impression that he is mad at everyone including OW, for making his life harder. Well, that is the price he has to pay. But really, if he was sooooo happy and sure about marrying OW, don't you think he would have done so a long time ago??

As long as he KNOWS that you are still there waiting for him, he has the advantage over you. He has to feel vulnerable and face the fear of losing you. Only then he may be able to come out of the fog.

On the job front, are you using the online job search tools? You receive a lot of 'noise' too, but once you post your resume online, you'll be surprised how many phone calls you may get. Have you also contacted any headhunters? The job market is still pretty tight, so keep looking! Don't be discouraged, you will find a job.

Milk

(This is the third time I've tried to post this morning- keep getting "timed out", even when I write quickly and without interuption- anyone else having this issue ?)

Thanks all, for the replies. I read them earlier but didn't
have a chance to reply until now.

Didn't hear anything else from WH, but when I got home on
Wed. he had been at the house, and there was a package on
the kitchen table !
Saw really scared when I saw it, thinking it was probably
divorce paperwork, but when I opened it, it was actually
enrollment paperwork for health insurance and WH had put a
note on it saying his job was changing insurance carriers,
he was enrolling us still on the "family plan" ( he is
required to carry his daughters on his insurance), and he
needed me to review and sign it, and would I please then
fax it to his H/R department.
Looked around the house, and it appeared he had taken a few
more items of his clothes, the few pieces of mail that were
there for him, and he had brushed the dog ! (he always did
it, and she won't let me without trying to bite)

Wondered since then, if his whole reason for calling me was
to talk about the paperwork, but he had to "bluster", fuss,
mention divorce and selling the house, as an "excuse" to call if OW was around ??? (I'm sure he wouldn't want her to
know he is renewing our FAMILY health insurance, now would he !!?)
However, I also remembered that during our conversation, he
had repeated his usual "mantra" (don't want to be married,
want to be alone, on his own) and I wouldn't think he'd
say that in front of OW- since she wants to marry him !
So, maybe she wasn't there and its just him, just seems
strange no matter I look at it-


Slammed

Just a quick note- hope everyone had a nice 4th holiday !

Nothing new with WH, but did discuss the phone call we'd
had with my IC last week. She's always thought that WH has been the "type" who doesn't want/or can't be the "bad guy" in any situation (probably because he's very much conflict-
avoider and also due to his disfunctional and co-dependent
family, has never had to take responsibility for anything)
so she's wondered if WH has been waiting and hoping that I
would finally "have enough" and be the one to proceed with
D, getting him "off the hook".
This week, after telling IC about WH seeming to call when
OW is around, his renewing our family insurance, and no
further moves on D, she said he seems much a "typical" WS
who really has no intention of leaving his marriage or
family, but has an A to "sow his wild oats", and is leading
on the OW all along with promises to divorce, marry her, etc. Seemed very plausible, since this fits with WH's cake-
eating !
Also, wondered if part of WH not making any further moves to
D might be because he really doesn't want to marry OW, and
saying that the supposed "D" is "dragging along", or being
delayed by me, is a good way for him to keep that "at bay" ?
From the couple of conversations I had with her, OW always
tried to sound like she was "so independent and strong,
didn't need a man, didn't want drama, etc." but I think her
actions and a conversation I overheard between her and WH
really proved the opposite- I think she is very clingy,
needy, controlling and manipulative, and that she probably
desperately wants to get married. (the fact that she is
40, never married and no kids, makes me think she may have
some kind of relationship or committment issues too !)
More later-

Sorry for the abrupt end to earier post- had a client and
had to go-

Thought that the IC's comments did make sense and seem to
fit the situation with WH. She repeated something she's
said before, which is that "she doesn't think that WH will
end the A". Her reasons for thinking this, are that she
feels "there is enough he likes about OW that he will put
up with the things he doesn't like". <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />
I would suppose the things he would like might be SF (on
the racier "kinky" side, which wasn't the case with us),
the fact that OW seems to believe whatever B.S. WH tells
her, and her "helpless" act. The things I'm sure he does
not like would be her controlling, manipulation, and the constant checking up and calling him.

Spoke with the IC about my job situation (she has formerly
been a career counselor) and she's had a few suggestions,
such as trying to find a different position within my same
career field (in order to eliminate the need to re-train in
a whole new field), networking with everyone I can think of,
putting out resumes to places I'd be interested in, etc.
I have been doing that, have registered on a couple of the
major job websites, and am checking job listings in the local paper and company websites.
I feel uncomfortable at work now, waiting for the "hammer
to fall", and am debating giving notice myself, rather than
waiting to be let go, which I expect will be by end of next
week. Thought if it would allow me to get unemployment, it
might be better to be "let go" rather than quit, but after
checking our state unemployment rules, I'm not sure I'd
qualify to get aid, either way, as the rules on how to get
unemployment pay say you must have lost the job "through
no fault of your own", which is pretty vague.
Almost worse than losing the job, and financial worries, is
the thought of losing the good clients I've developed, the
thought of not being able to finish up the work I have in
progress, as well as thinking about not having something to
get up for each day and keep me busy...

Slammed

IMO, your IC is making DJs regarding your WH. How can she know this stuff about him?

Also, why are your ICing sessions focused on talking and supposing about him?



Plus, you really don't know her or how she is with him, Slammed.

Try to focus on yourself, who you are and how you are feeling.



From the way it sounds, she may be better at this... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/rolleyes.gif" alt="" />..My opinion...

I was wondering that myself...



Here, here (or is it hear, hear?) Slammed, Plan B is not about spending hours speculating on what he's doing and why, and whether it is "working" or not.

It is about moving on, as best you can.

Hey Mimi and A.M., good to hear from you both again !

Yes, you are right that all the IC knows about WH is from
what I've told her. Most of her thoughts and opinions in
regards to WH have been related to his behavior and actions
being very "typical" of people with bipolar and obsessive/
compulsive disorders, not so much from the "angle" of the
affair.
I don't typically discuss WH much anymore, since nothing has changed and there's really nothing for me to say. Did
bring it up with her last week, as the unexpected phone
call with WH had ocurred that same day and I was feeling
very unsettled about it. She very much encourages me to
continue strengthening and working on myself, my own issues,
my own plans, and to try to be as detached from WH as I can.

My weekend was okay- I worked Sat. morning, ran errands,
went out to lunch, did a bit around the house, and went to
a movie with friends in the evening. Sun. I had volunteered
to help a friend move her daughter and her fiance move into
a new house. Ended up being a long day, but not too bad.
Their new house is near WH's house, which made me feel very
strange. On a quick drive to get some cold drinks, we drove
right by his house- first time I've seen it since he moved
out in March ! Didn't get a full look, as it's in a gated
area and was partly behind a fence, but could see that the
front yard was nicely landscaped with lots of flowers, even
hanging flower baskets, and there was both a big flag by
the garage and little flags all around the yard (very unlike
WH, so must be OW's "touch"- yuck !) Through the front
window of what was a spare bedroom, I coul also see weight
machines and exercise equipment, something WH had always
wanted. Made me feel very strange, like a stranger looking
at another person's life, and knowing nothing about it !
I got teary-eyed but tried not to show it as I sat in the
back of the truck and we drove by !
Glad I have no reason to need to be near there often- I
don't want to see it again !

No, I'm not spending a lot of time speculating or worrying
about WH and OW, but I have do have moments of sadness,
frustration and disappointment, and the longer it has gone
on, I have lost some of my optimism and faith that things
will turn around- guess that's part of my griving process ?

Right now, my biggest worry and frustration is my job sitch
and what I'm going to do financially. I've been able to pay
about half of the mortage, bills and living expenses, with WH paying the rest up , don't know what I'll do now-

Slammed

Well, after thinking about it alot, talking to friends and
family, and checking on the rules for unemployment, I gave
notice to my job on Friday. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />
I was sure I'd be let go by end of this week when the sales
stats for the past month were in and didn't want to be "let
go" all of a sudden and all my files and clients left in a
mess, thought it at least preferable to be able to know in
advance what would be my last day, and be able to leave all
my files neat and done, and notify my clients I'd be gone.
Talked to my boss Friday, and he was actually very nice,
even if he is really "wimpy" and basically a "yes" man who
just quotes all the company policies and never makes a real
decision or determination about anything ! Said he was very
sad to have me go, thought my customer service was terrific,
I was well-liked by co-workers and clients, had excellent
rapport and skills, but just couldn't get sales up enought
to meet our required goal. I took the opportunity to "speak
my mind" about the lack of marketing and advertising the
company does, my doing all I could to market myself and our
business, and feeling disappointed the company doesn't put
more value on great employee traits like being reliable,
honest, customer service, etc...
I did offer to work two additional works (past the two weeks
notice) as my co-worker is going to be on vacation, just
because it gives me two more weeks of pay, and a little more
time to look for a job, but my boss was going to have to
talk to his superior about that, so I don't know yet-

Feel down, but at least glad to not have the decision still
hanging over my head, or the dread of waiting to be fired.
The unemployment policies are so vague, that I'll just have
to apply and see what happens- don't know if I can get it
or not.

The weekend was rainy and gray, so the days were long.
I did some housework, laundry, ran some errands, and went to
a movie with friends Sat. night.

Nothing new from WH. I had a call on our home phone Friday
from the H/R department at his work asking he call back, so
left him a "business-like" voicemail to relay the message.
I assume it might be about the new insuranc benefits and
thought it might be important-

Don't think I posted that OW called my work last week !!!!
I was at my desk working on Thurs afternoon, when I got a
call transferred within the office, which allows me to see
the inbound phone number,and it was WH's home phone number.
I was suspicious that it was OW, since WH should be at his Comm. Service job during the day, not home, but not wanting
to talk to either of them, I transferred the call to my
voicemail. I asked my receptionist who had just called, and
she said it was a female, who asked for me as Mrs. first
name/last name ! She did not leave a message, but it made
me feel very strange- wondering why she was calling and what she'd want, plus also how she found out where I work !
(I think she knew what I did, but not where, so I'd have to
assume she got into WH's wallet, where he had my business
card).

Slammed

(See my previous post before this one)
Forgot to add- when I got a glimpse of Wh's house a couple
of weeks ago, that there was a boat in the driveway !
Don't know if it might have been rented, or if he and/or
OW bought one, but considering he was trying to pay off his
credit cards and get finances in better order, sure don't
think he had any business buying something like that !
Also, just another "MLC TOY" to add to his collection of
stuff that's fun and gets used for awhile, then just sits !

Know it's none of my "Plan B" business- I'm just venting !!

Slammed

Had to be in early today for a mandatory staff meeting with
all the company "head honchos" here- not sure why I had to
attend since I'm only here til end of next week, but it was
at least fairly short.
Haven't heard yet if I'm going to be asked to work two addtl
weeks to cover for my co-workers vacation or not, but I'm
not counting on it and am really trying to think of all my
options, put out resumes, network, etc.. for a new job soon.

Feel strange thinking of going somewhere when I'm losing my
job and money is tight, but Id sure love to take a little
trip for just a couple of days to get away from the stress
and have a break. Might still be able to get some discounts
too, using my agent discount. I really enjoyed Las Vegas
when I went with WH back in February, but don't know that
it'd be that fun alone, so am now thinking about going to
Disneyland ! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Nothing new with WH, but I continue to pray daily for a
complete, permanent end to the affair, and return of my H.
I love Mimi's thought on another thread- "P.U.S.H"
(Pray until something happens) and feel like that is all I
can do, especially on days lately when it feels like nothing
is ever going to change, and I'm down due to the job sitch.

As far as I know, there's been no other attempts by OW to
call me at work (see previous message from yesterday) but I
feel a little funny knowing that she knows where I am.
Still have no idea why she'd be trying to call me- ???

Slammed