hello to all,

sorry i havent been around, our keyboard was shot and so couldnt get computer to work, h got new keyboard lastnight and had to totally redo computer. sadly i lost all my favorites. i had so much stuff concerning this, i know ill never be able to find all i had. i learned a hard lesson. next time ill save all my favs to a back up. im really sad over it.

anyway, i still dont know if oc has been born, hdd called her and ow told her that if h wanted to know he had to call her himself. what a brat,[i had other names but that isnt nice]. it makes me mad that ow could pull hdd into this and then tell her she cant tell her own dad. that tells u what kinda woman she is.

anyway our 15 year old son left thursdaY TO GO TO CAL FOR BATTLE CRY, CRISTIAN CONCERT. and we have 4 days to ourselves my h didnt want to call ow and mess up our time together. he decided if he hasnt heard from her by monday then he will call her. he hoping that b already born and shell be so tired from lack of sleep that she wont be able to yell at him. i say she has no right to yell at him. i as his wife dont have that right,she sure doesnt. anyway ill let you all know by tuesday.

we go for tests on h heart on thursday, its not good dr. has him on all kinds of meds including some for stress. ill let you know how that goes to.

emkaydee,thanks and yes it sounds like our ow is alot the same ours is 24, i am 44 and h is 43. we have grown children, we have our years coming as our son is 15. its not like h is just beggining, we have 4 grandchildren also. my h will take responsibility for oc if it is his oc will be a part of my family also, what is a part of my h is a part of me. but we will not play her games or jump through her hoops things will not be her way or no way. we would let go first, then its all on her. we played the games with the xw and we wont do it again. i agree with the others dont let her have the control dont be afraid of losing trust god and it will happen the way he wants,in his time. i think that is what is hardest for me, in gods time not mine. our ow is also a drama queen. she had to tell everyone how my h had abandoned her even tho it all ended before she found out she was preg, she had told h there was no future that she relly just wanted it to be a summer fling.

well today is 26th let me know how your doing. i understand about the feelings coming often. im constantly asking h for reassurance that hes never going to leave me and that he loves me. i know that is stupid cause again if i trust god and leave it all in his hands then things will go exactly the way there supposed to. anyway ill be thinking and praying for you. just let god carry you right now, he is very strong and has large arms. he will get you through.

crazy, i think maybe they found out child his her h and since there married it is anyway. in your case i would just want to know so i could go on with my life and let this go. goodluck, ill be thinking of you.

bye all, ill let you know when i find out. keep your prayers going, imtswife