Have fun watching the game. Which game you watching?

Being in my own house will be so different. I don't have any friends that would probably come visit. Just mainly family. I do have a friend who is going through a divorce as well. I should be thankful that my situation is not like hers. Her and her H have been married for 15 year ( I think). They had their first child last September, and three days after Christmas he just said "I love you but I don't want to live with you or the baby". Walked out and she hasn't seen him since. She got D papers in the mail a couple weeks ago, and he only wants to see the baby every third weekend. So maybe her and I will be able to get together some. She is a much stronger person than I though, she will not have a hard a time as I will I don't believe.

Have a good evening all. We'll start a new post for tomorrow!

Don't be sorry Soon. Briefly, the changes are: my lack of appreciation (not verbally but based on my behavior) in my H for everything he always did, He could never talk to me about anything, I would always make him/his feelings seem insignificant, my trust issues from the past, self-esteem, insecurities, and some selfishness on my part. Prior to this whole thing, material things meant alot to me - now they mean absolutely nothing - I realize now what is most important and what is going to make me happy - I no longer care that we are in a 4000 square foot house - this house means nothing to me anymore, in fact, I can't wait to be out of this house, it just means nothing anymore and that is SO sad. It is ashame that it took this to make me realize that what matters is that I have my family.

Now, I know I am not a bad person by any stretch but my H did treat me fantastically. Above and beyond what any man should do for a woman. Honestly, I can say that. In fact, when Tired describes how he was with his wife - it's similar to how my H was with me. My H's motto was "Anything to make my wife happy" and it turned out that he made himself unhappy by always trying to make me happy.

Alright, my kids are driving me nuts - I have to run!

I was having a good day....and then the lawyer called. Since I hadn't heard anything from her I had kind of forgotten about the legalities of the divorce. H and I have been spending time together getting the house ready to sell, and now spending time together to move out.

Tonight I'm going over to spend the night, we'll have pizza, and then I'll pack up more stuff and take the dog to the vet tomorrow AM (near where the house is).

I just know when it comes to talking about $$ it makes H really really uptight. That is when he's at his worst. virtually everyone agreees that the pre-nup isn't "fair". So there is some grey and that will make him more nervous. It seeems too bad that the finances will obliterate the small improvments we've been able to achieve.

I'm hatin life today....
Cis