Beaux,
I'm so sorry you are in the situation you are in. I went thru something similar when I was 21 - it turned out to be the BEST thing that could have ever happened to me - although it didn't feel like it at the time, I just wanted to die - just like me back then, consider yourself very lucky that you do not have children. Having kids makes it ALOT tougher. And your description is correct, it seems as though it would be easier to deal with death as opposed to your spouse casting you aside. I can totally relate. Those feelings are very real, I am sorry you have to feel them. But you will get thru this, no matter what the outcome.

Feel free to lean on us, ask questions, ask for advice - there are alot of great people on here that can offer support. You're in my prayers.