I'm not sure what you mean by be more specific about the lies.....do you want the lies I think he's telling me know, the lies he's told me??? I could write a book <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/blush.gif" alt="" />!

--Sarah

I'm glad to see your update.

You are doing well. I am so glad you went to your dr again to evaluate your anti-d's. What are you on now? I have had great success w/ zoloft and it doesn't make me tired nor does it seem to affect my sex drive...(my big joke is, can you really decrease a sex drive that isn't high to begin with??) <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> (I TRY PEOPLE! I have four youngsters, one that I JUST stopped nursing and she just started sleeping through the night) I hold out hope that my H and I will get our SF to a healthy and satisfying level for the both of us...it has been an ongoing struggle...

Just some OT thoughts. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Hang in there, you are doing well, keep breathing and stepping through the tunnel...there is an opening at the end, I promise.

Blessings
Michele

I understand.

I meant specifically the truths you discovered that you base your decision on to no longer remain in your marriage.

Do you still feel that way today, or have things calmed down a bit?

Sarah,

Why is your doctor not referring you to a counsellor? He will already know how you are and has the information to do so. I refer people to counsellors all the time and often in other states - it is not rocket science - just a case of picking up the phone or getting on line - or both sometimes - I do not understand what the hold up is.

Linda

You're getting lost on page 3!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Good afternoon. How are you feeling?

I hope you have a pleasant day and that something will bring a genuine smile to your fact today.

<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />
Blessings,
Glad

sarah hola chica how are ya what kind of plans do you have for mothers day if any hope its something good.

That was "a genuine smile to your *face*" <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Have a wonderful Mother's Day Weekend, Sarah!

I look forward to "talking" with you next week!

Michele

Just wanted to say HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all the mothers!!

Glad,

Happy Anniversary too (I saw your post on another thread)!

I hope everyone has a blessed Mother's Day!!

--Sarah

Wanted to quick update. My H got a tatoo of his wedding ring on his wedding ring finger. It actually looks really good. I told him how my friend's H did it and told him it would mean a lot to me if he would to. He said he wouldn't unless I did but then he surprised me with it yesterday.

So now he can't just take his wedding ring off anymore <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

I'll write more when I get time (probably Monday). Have a good day!!

--Sarah

WOW!

He was alluding to a surprise for you on his thread. Thats awesome!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

As I told my H yesterday "I'm planning on being a spoiled brat today!:

<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

So far I got breakfast in bed, and a sweet booklet from my 1st grader that described me as 5'2" and 60 lbs. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Off to church in an hour. Have a wonderful day!
Michele

HOLA, how was your weekend good i hope and what ever happened to sturg.

Hi guys!

My weekend was ok. It was very busy. We had a b-day party on Saturday and started opening our pool Sat. night. Then we continued opening the pool Sunday. We had a lot of work to do and it took all day. I still didn't finish. I have to check the chemicals today.

My Mother's Day was nice. We went to church. My H got me a picture framed of me and our DDs. It is really cute!! My 4 yr. old made me a magnet and a card and my 8 yr. old grew a plant at school for me.

Last night was really hard on me. I was pretty depressed when I went to bed. I feel like I let myself down by staying with my H. It is just that I always told myself I would leave if he cheated on me (I know we all say that). But I truly meant it and I feel I let myself down. My self-esteem is still really, really low too and I'm not used to feeling that way! I hate thinking about it when someone walks by me. I think, "I wonder if they are thinking how ugly I am." I never ever thought that before. I also wonder what my H is thinking when he looks at me.

He told me that in July (pre-A) that when we held hands at the beach it felt weird. Of course, he told me this after he was in the A, but he still admits it to this day that he felt weird. That hurts me so much b/c I remember at the beach holding his hand and how happy I was since we didn't get to hold hands often b/c of the girls and it felt really great to me to hold his hand.

Now looking back knowing he felt weird really hurts me A LOT!! Not only that but he had sex with OW and kissed OW and hugged OW and held OW's hand and didn't feel weird! I just don't get it and never will.

I have been around here long enough to know it is all normal thinking, but it is just really depressing. I think it also isn't helping that I am in the middle of two meds right now. I am weaning myself off of the one, getting ready to start the new one.

Michele,

Great gifts! Sounds like you had a good Mother's Day!

Linda, saenz,

How have you been??

How was everyone's weekend?

--Sarah

Hi Sarah,

Mine not good - he regressed into really difficult behaviour - I thought he had a psychotic break it was so bad. Then it turned out he knew he was OK and as I do not respond to any of his LBs now, decided to keep on pretending until I believed he was breaking down in his mind.

So I was devastated - we had made it - I was looking to clean up my last few triggers so they didn't trip us up.

He just likes how he is - maybe he is PD - what then ....

Nikko - question ...

you know you used to be able to send people private posts on here I am sure - I had a special friend - I can't find them now or their email - I lost a hard drive - sure miss her now.

Linda

and your question is??????LOL

you want to find someone?

yes - but I found her last post on july last year and have tried all combinations of her email - I thought there was a way to send any member a private post so you could send them your email addy - but maybe I am remembering too far back - I read this site for two years before I dared join, it was so hard to do all the stuff when he was LBing me into the ground and still have only just become anything like active - just didn't feel qualified before - I guess I just need to shut up and be happy with things - all great folks - just having a hard time a bit .... anyway not my thread - I'll take a day or so off - go back to just running my groups ....

Deep breaths .....

SP

hey CO....

wow...what a crazy life ive had latley...kinda been skimming but had no time to talk...

just reached a HUGE milestone in my life...1 yr anniversary with GF and i was down in cabo again fishing...

just got back saturday...im working now and will catch up in next few days....

i was reading your posts....just keep "do right"....in your life and by your kids....thats all you can do right now anyway!

talk 2 ya L8R! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

why not just post a shout out to anyone who may have it...ya never know.lol

post whats bothering you and get it out...work through it...

Linda,

Sorry to hear about your weekend. Are you guys doing any better?



What does PD mean?

--Sarah

Hey sturg,

Nice to hear from you. Saenz has been asking about you and where you've been. Good to hear from you. I can always relate to your posts.

Congrats on the 1 year anniversary. Sounds like you had a great time!

Good luck catching up at work after vacation!

--Sarah

sturg your so lucky fishing in cabo lucky lucky lucky
and oh yeah great on the 1 yr.