How a WS can still keep trying? in order to have my married alive....

Violence is present again. Is possible that with my EA my H hate me and he cant recover never?

As I never thought to get involved with OM my H never thought to hit me, but both were wrong.

In my case I learned my leason... I discovered how bad I was, how pain I put in my family...all this damage is done.. Im convinced and I learned my leason..

but about my H violence Im afraid he hasnt learned his lesson.. he is so furious, he doesnt want any help from anyone... and he is in pain, terrible pain,, but he tries to hide it.. and when he explots,,, he use alcohol or violence in order to express his emotions...

Yesterday I didnt went to work I was leaving home, but because of my daughter Ididnt do... and Im worry about my H.. I love him, but he hurt me.. now he hit me from back... I mean I was giving him back,, and he hit me on my head... I cant describe how painful was, not just physically... but emotionaly....

Today my coworkers asked me "how are you?" and I almost started to cry....

I feel terrible.. for me this man (my H ) is not the one who I married 6 years ago... I think my H can think same way about me... a woman who lied and had an EA.... I dont know what to do...

I think a separation can be fine here... I dont know...

your situation is far too serious

and far too dangerous

for you to rely on a message board for advice or council

you need some real life help

a real life counselor

and some real life protections from

domestic violence

why is why you have not gotten much response

get help in real life

you are in a very serious critical and dangerous situation

make the call for help
now

Pep

I spoke with my H yesterday night.. He is not concient about how damage had done.. He tries to "justify" that he became in a violent man because of my A...

I asked him to think, if he want to stay together or not,, and I explained how I feel about this violence...

We are thinking, we are like zombies... and we are going to decide something... I hope this will be soon...