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WAT - An email address? This is pretty important.
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and my agenda?
Do I NEED ONE? No, but my sense is that you HAVE one. Just curious. WAT
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You can mail me at W@whitehouse.govWAT
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Think I over-reacted....thought I saw a post that could have possibly been the XOM...
Scared the daylights out of me.
LOST 2006 - I am sorry to hear that! Please hang in there. I know it's going to be hard, but worth it!
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Just, still on a learning curve WAT
panic not my dear old friend.
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Got it, but don't need to send you anything. I panicked. All is well.
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S&C - You may have missed my post earlier about the last time you talked to the OM? So the last time you talked to the OM was about 2 weeks ago? What I'm confused about is that last week when you posted you were in such a fog and it seemed that you were still very "hooked" on your feelings for this OM, but now you changed so quickly. Now you say you are on top of the world because you told your H and God has given you hope. While that can be true,I remember feeling like garbage after telling my H. Yes, it was "freeing" to get it all out, but I still felt VERY miserable with having to deal with the mess that I created and still the residual feelings I had for the OM. You posted this about the OM on 4/3: We no longer see each other and I feel like I am going to lose my mind. And this too: but it seems daily that my mind switches back and forth to the OM. One day I think I love him, the next I hate him.
I feel horrible for the things I have done in the past, but more horrible that my feelings are still mixed. I'm just trying to understand how you *really* feel emotionally? The posts above by you were only 1 week ago. While I am glad that you say that you are committed to your marriage, I am concerned about you. Did you tell the OM that you were posting on here? Why would you think he was posting on here otherwise?
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Today is a new day, not sure how to explain why or how I feel the way I do.
I feel God all around me. He is helping me. I also remember saying that I prayed ALL THE TIME for God to help, why hasn't he?
He must have heard me.
Don't get me wrong, I know I have to take this minute by minute. I'm already feeling pretty damn sick again. It comes and goes.
All I can say is I am working with God and my H to make a better life for us.
Today I feel encouraged (getting a little sick along the way).
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God was right there all the time just waiting for you to come to Him. You had to take the step to come to Him... And you did. All I can say is I am working with God and my H to make a better life for us. What is your plan here? How are you going to make it better? Also, you didn't answer my question about why you thought the OM was posting here and if you told him about this site?
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Back months ago (probably 6 or so) yes I told him about the site. When I saw someone's response I immediately though it was him, but it wasn't.
Why are you being so hard on me?
I'm much worse this afternoon then this morning.
I feel like CRAP and I just want to run away.
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I wish I could just throw up this feeling in my gut. I have never felt so bad in my life.....
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What changed between now and this morning?
Or is it just the weight of it all?
I never had to take the Kobayashi Maru test until now. What do you think of my solution?O'hana means family, and family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten. My Story Recovered!
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I would think the weight of it all. It's overwhelming right now. I just feel so sick.
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I assume this is the rollercoaster part that I keep hearing. And BOY do I HATE rollercoasters!
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Would it help you to know that there are other people out there who know exactly how you are feeling. Who've btdt and survived it?
Every single thing you've described today is exactly how my husband felt....the ups and the downs.
You are not alone. You will get through this. We can make you better....stronger.....faster....
(oops. channeling Bionic Woman re-runs.....bet it made you smile, tho)
Jelly (kyellow) and KiwiJen have been through it all, too.....shout out to them. They are wellsprings of understanding.
From this BS to YOU, this pain that you are in, that your husband is in, is not a forever hurt. It might ache every now and then, but it's finite. You have my shoulder and my ears should you need them.
- Kimmy
I never had to take the Kobayashi Maru test until now. What do you think of my solution?O'hana means family, and family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten. My Story Recovered!
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Back months ago (probably 6 or so) yes I told him about the site. When I saw someone's response I immediately though it was him, but it wasn't.
Why are you being so hard on me? I'm not being hard on you. It just seemed by what you posted earlier that this OM may be on here and that wouldn't be a good idea. I'm much worse this afternoon then this morning.
I feel like CRAP and I just want to run away. I understand how you feel. It will get better though. A year ago I never thought I would get through the pain of everything, but I did! And you will too!
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Kimmy and 2B - I am crying right now because of your kindness. And that's not a good thing b/c I am at work! LOL
Kimmy - got the bionic woman part and yes you made me laugh!!! Thanks for that.
Oh, what would I have done if I hadn't found out about this site.
Another way God is steering me in the right direction - HE made me find you.
I love you both and will never be able to truly tell you what your words mean!
GOD BLESS YOU BOTH!
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2B - Meant to address this, sorry. THE XOM doesn't give a cr*& about me - I was simply a "distraction" - his words. So I doubt that he would even consider looking at this site, which is a really good thing.
And even if he did, I would immediately change my signon name.....
He doesn't have the balls enough to show his face on a site this like - he wants to avoid it for the rest of his life so his W will never know. As bad as I feel for my H, I feel just as sorry for her, maybe more, because of her situation.
Enough about him PLEASE! NO MORE CONTACT!
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De nada. Someone was there for me. I'm just paying it forward. You'll do the same someday.
Don't worry about crying at work. I don't know a gal alive that hasn't made her way to a toilet stall for some privacy and plentiful tissue supply at least once in her life.
That, too, shall pass.
- Kimmy
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I want to focus on my M not on the XOM.....
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