Doin' great. VD (our OW) told the Wookie last night when we went to pick up the kids that she didn't think we were coming (HELLO? TRAFFIC? IT WAS RUSH HOUR!) so she didn't change mijo....what kind of excuse was that? She didn't change him out of his shooey diaper because she thought we WEREN'T coming? ERG!
Bathtime when we got home! ;-) Both kids are always FILTHY when we get them....
And the lice....shudder.....don't get me started....(little background - my DD (OC1) has had lice since she was 6 months old. Every time we pick her up, we have to go through her hair before we can let her play. It's so bad that we log the bugs themselves in a book to present to the judge....blech...but since we have the kids 5 days now, she doesn't get them NEARLY as bad as she used to....hard to find the good in that but there it is).
H is having some seriously bad moments. He said to me this morning, "You wake up happy, like you've done nothing wrong or you have forgotten..." FORGOTTEN??? My reply, "I will never forgot what I have done to you and our family...my focus and direction, now, is to not fix my past, but change the direction of OUR future..." The awful memories are with me day in and day out but I have to be strong and work with my H day by day. We both feel that we can get past this, and both understand it's going to take a long time.
That's understandable. I do hope you told him what you've said here, tho. Also, show him this:
Proverbs 31, 10:31
10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
This I gave to the Wookie so he could SEE what I aspire to. Tell your dear one that you would be this for God, him and your family. Not many of us are there yet, but it is such a peaceful, rewarding thing to realize that all we have to do is already set down.
- Kimmy
