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You are welcome. The reason I share is because I hope people learn from my mistakes. I am coming up on the third year since the A. Next month actually it will be three years.

I can tell you the feelings I had on the first anniversary were really bad. I thought to myself this time last year...

The second year after the A I had the same new feelings because between the first year and the second year I found out more details (lies).

This year it already feels like it is going to be the same.

I honestly wish I could have just dealt with that time once. The things that I knew the first year didn't bother me as much it was the new details that bothered me.

Now the entire month of June is going to be very tough on me and some of the days are going to kill me. Like my sons birthday now that I know what happened that day and my wedding anniversary now that I know what happened that day. Hopefully this is the last time I will have new details so next year will be better.

The reason I tell people this is to show how important radical honesty is. If your FWS does not believe it there are plenty of us here to tell them differently.

Time heals all wounds but if you keep picking at the scab it will never heal. Not being honest is like picking at the scab. Once you pick that scab you start right over in the healing process. I wish my FWW would have realized this.

Now I don't know how long it will take me to trust her because I don't know how to trust someone that can lie to me for that long and be ok with it.